278. Speak Up or Not Speak Up

les-anderson-164941.jpgI had the opportunity to watch the new Beauty and the Beast film at the cinema. I enjoy watching movies – not only because it’s fun / entertaining, but I am always learning something – whether it’s a personal point I discover within though the film, or a pattern that stands out that helps me more in understanding the world system or our nature as humanity.

One particular point in the movie that stood out to me is when the main female character Belle asked the talking teapot Mrs. Potts why did she also get turned into something by the witch. Mrs. Potts – basically explained that she is just as guilty and responsible as the Beast (who got turned into one because of his selfish nature) because she and the rest of the staff in the castle allowed him to be raised by his cruel father, and no one said anything, spoke up or stood up. So she and the rest of the staff are equally responsible for his selfish upbringing and the consequences of it.

I found this a cool point because I saw/realized in that moment:

  • Despite not being/playing an active role in someone’s upbringing like a parent, you still have the responsibility to in moments of interaction with this person, to stand as an example of support in your Self-Honesty, because if you are quiet and just let things slide without speaking up or standing up in moments you see you should, you will have to walk through and face the consequences regardless
  • That this is just like us in existence, on earth – where over time no one has stood up and questioned the nature of mankind or questioned what was really going on in Heaven because of fear, until Bernard came along and finally spoke up and became an example of who and how we can live, and now we are all in the process of facing our consequences and yet, also discovering ourselves as Life
  • By remaining quiet and passive when you see Sh!t happen and not do or say anything, you are allowing other people in other situations to do the same, creating and perpetuating the behavior and allowing things to happen in this world and have an equal responsibility to how things play out

Bringing it Back to Self:

From this, I bring it back to self and ask me where am I being quiet, not sharing, not speaking or standing up, when I see it is needed/necessary to do so? This is also a check in my Self Honesty to see what more I can do, where and how much more I can contribute to humanity through a simple sharing, or living a word, or giving/showing support to someone. Because I realize – that if I remain quiet, and allow my insights and realizations to slip by without using them for the good of myself and humanity, my self-expression will dwindle and be channeled more into the mind. Thus, for me it’s important I push more in sharing and grounding me with my realizations and insights in writing and practical living. So I am committing myself to speak up and share me more when I see Self Honestly I can do so.

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276. Face the Weaknesses & Grow from Them

4uojmedcwi8-tim-bogdanovI identified a pattern/program where I go into fear and insecurity when a new task/assignment/project is given that I am not confident in and do not yet have experience on. I will go into those emotional experiences, and I suppress that because that shows a WEAKNESS of mine. Usually I would suppress these experiences because they reveal a weakness/something I don’t know or am not confident in, and from this I will normally then judge them or react in fear to the experiences showing my weakness. So it’s a program …

Wikipedia: A (computer) program is a collection of instructions that performs a specific task when executed by a computer.

So I have a collection of instructions that I as a being have accepted and allowed in me to act on when something happens, such as in this case – when I access a point of a weakness, something I am not confident in – I typically go into this program of reacting in fear or anger or judgement or worry towards the weakness – it’s a shield to protect me from understanding and seeing more into the weakness in general and instead of doing something about it, learning from the weakness and improving me as the weakness, I follow the program of reacting and suppressing and not doing anything about it

I know if I face it I face the fact that I don’t know something, I am weak in something, I need help in something, I am vulnerable in something, and that is something that is not ‘good’ in the ‘survival of the fittest’ system – for others and even me to see a weakness/vulnerability point.

The best solution I see within this is to actually acknowledge and see the weakness for what it is, understand it and then find a way to strengthen it.

Self-Forgiveness & Corrective Statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react negatively when I see a weakness or point I am not confident in, instead of dropping the emotion and instead working within understanding/translating it from my mind and finding a solution to learn and grow from it

I commit myself to when and as I see me react towards a weakness I see in my mind, to stop, breathe and forgive the specific emotion and find a way to learn and grow from it, because I realize the emotion/reaction is like a shield that protects the access to really understanding the weakness/problem in fact, because if I can understand it, I can change it

I believe I have taken on a similar program from my dad, where when I feel like my weaknesses may be exposed, I will protect it by reacting, to shield me from seeing more into the weakness or secret, even. What I realize is that this is typical response we all have built in us because in the world, any form of weakness could be used against us, and could threaten our survival, which means we somehow have created it this way in ourselves, where we use our weaknesses against ourselves – instead of nurturing and supporting ourselves to strengthen our weaknesses. This means we/I need to start opening up these weaknesses in a space of support, that no matter what I see and reveal to me, I will find a way, a solution to assist and support me to understand and walk through this weakness and act/live a solution that I can build/grow/develop from the weakness, so eventually the weakness becomes a strength.

I commit myself to create the safe space within me I always wanted – where when I face a weakness I acknowledge it and use the bridge word LEARN to move me to support me to learn from the weakness and find a solution to strengthen it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react strongly when I feel like my vulnerability and my weaknesses are being ”threatened” – meaning, they may be exposed or be revealed to someone because I am so afraid of what or how another may see me now. I see, realize and understand that I am afraid of being judged or seen as weak if/when my weaknesses are revealed and have them be used against me or the weakness/es are used to place a label and be seen as something/someone due to this weakness.

I commit myself to stop defining people according to their weaknesses, and/or using their weaknesses and problems as justifications towards why they are the way they are since weaknesses doesn’t define a being in their entirety

I commit myself to stop defining me and judging me according to my weaknesses and instead use every single weakness point of mine as an opportunity for me to get to know myself better, learn and grow from it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect having a weakness to it being a ‘problem’ and from it being a ‘problem’ react in fear towards it, by thinking ‘I can’t have a problem’ because then that shows to me something I need to work on and CHANGE in me

I commit myself to EMBRACE the problems I have and see them as gifts that give me insight into what I need to understand more, learn more from and develop into a strength – and move me to do so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change and fear understanding and learning more about my weaknesses because I know and realize on a deep level these weaknesses also reveal a point of self-honesty and other not-so-pretty parts of me that need to change. I realize I will face my self-honesty as some point in my life/existence, and best to face it here while I’m here and alive. I can always learn, grow and develop from a weakness – it doesn’t have to stay a weakness – it can always be strengthened and changed, therefore –

I commit myself to work on every one of my weaknesses, to open them up, understand them, see where I fall, see what I need to develop, learn and grow from so I stop reacting and instead live free from reactions

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260. Walking through Competition

Last Remaining PassengerI found a reaction towards people who supposedly seem to copy me/my work and use it for their work. There’s the want to take all the credit, want to be the only one known for something or have done something. But it’s impossible cause when work is shared and open and available people can use it, or become inspired by it.

What I realised within this is you will never win, there is never a most successful person. Success is defined subjectively and differently by everyone. Kim Kardashian can be known as the biggest star for some, even herself, but there is always competition, always someone or a few people one sees as fighting their way to rise to the top. Competition is a tricky nasty thing, but it’s existent in all of us.

And the point is – it will never go away unless we change our relationship to it. We can use it in healthy ways, instead of destructive ways. There is a solution to every problem.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in protectiveness over my own professional work when I see another has produced/created similar professional work like me because I think that they have stolen a part of my work/creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel defensive when I interpret/think that someone has copied me and my work and used it for their own work/benefit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I think/interpret/question if someone took/copied my work when I see their work and compare it to mine and see similarities/expressions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I compare my work to another’s work and see similarities by thinking/believing that they want to be better than me. From this I realise I am existing in paranoia, thinking and believing another is deliberately trying to be better than me/one up me by taking my work and making it their own and/or better.

I realise that real copying of someones work is actually replicating/using the original copy or creating it similarly deliberately. I also realise I need to purify the word ‘’copy/copying.’’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others copying my work, and doing so deliberately for their own self-interested benefit where I lose out of success and opportunities to succeed because someone was able to make profit or get more out of it than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the thought/idea that someone took and copied part of my work to make their work look good or better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards the idea that the person who has similar expression/work like me must have sneakily studied my work and took what she like with the intent of being better than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others taking my work and using it for their own self-interest benefit of being more/better than me and rising to the top

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I see work similar to mine by thinking they want to be better than me and within that, actually fear and create imaginations of how they could be better than me. Within this I realise this fear then creates the desire for me to work more, and harder to do what I believe will look and be better.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the drive to be better, and produce better work actually comes from the fear of others also creating themselves and their to succeed and be better than me, so that there is only one good product/producer of the work. I realise that this is what companies do (like cell phones) where they take from each others ideas and use them to create something more and better so they can be original/unique/the best, not realising that eventually their unique/great idea will be copied or taken and then used by the competition to create something better/more unique, thus perpetuating the cycle of driving self wanting to be at the top instead of creating a product that will benefit all, and support all in actually stopping the entire survival/competition construct in the first place!!

I also realize this is how the mind is – where the mind wants MORE – more energy and will do what it can to keep it’s survival continuing by fueling itself as it’s systems. I guess this is why we fear stopping our mind cause we believe stopping the mind we will die – when it’s that the mind is a system we are fueling and when we stop fueling the mind we realize we are more than the mind, but actually beings in our physical bodies. The key is showing people how we are not the mind, but much more than that. And when everyone walks through their mind, and releases themselves as the systems of the mind, can the system of the world really change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise the nature of competition, which is based on self-interest in wanting more, either money, or more chances/security of survival, to be at the top, and self will drive self naturally to do what they see is best for them in context of succeeding and getting more…because self is exiting in FEAR and lots of it instead of equally wanting to help self and others in creating a world best for all

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question the nature of competition and what life would be like if survival ceased to exist, if everyone had the security and safety of their life, absolutely

and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work towards a solution in creating a world where fear of survival is non-existent, and life and living is real/absolute. I realise the reason why I have not committed 100% to working towards this ideal world/heaven on earth is because I have given more value to my fears, survival and living, which really is tricky then to create something new like a world without fear if one is already in fear about their life/survival, how can you really move on and create when you are stuck in fears?

I commit myself to stop and breathe when I see myself wonder or fear if someone took/copied from me and my work. I realize I do not know in fact if they did and really it does not matter in the end because what really matters is contributing to a world that guarantees a life for everyone where fear of survival doesn’t exist.

I commit myself to stop fueling the fear of whether someone is intentionally wanting to be better than me, since if I fuel it than I will then drive myself in fear to want to be better than them when the entire point of working for a world best for all is missed.

I commit myself to shift my focus and thinking to working on myself to create a world best for all instead of how I can rise to the top with my own work, since rising to the top is an ILLUSION, just like how the mind makes things in your head seem real.

 

 

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248. Self Worth & Celebrities

7FMZC77KOOI faced a situation where I met someone I define as a celebrity. This individual has several thousand fans on their social media and they travel all over the world. This person actually came up and talked to me, and there were movements in me where I questioned why this person is talking to me, doubting myself and my self worth. I breathed and pushed through the self-doubts/reactions to talk and express me with this person, but it was difficult. As much as I tried my best, I saw the need to bring this point into writing for understanding and self-correction, because I know I will meet such people again, and I want to be stable and comfortable to express myself.

Self-Forgiveness & Self-Corrective/Commitment Statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel extremely uncomfortable in my body when talking to M through reacting to the thought ”how come she is talking to me? What is she doing?” within the nature of self-worthlessness and inferiority

I commit myself to embrace each person that comes into contact with me, allowing myself to engage in the conversation/interaction within self-expression as me, letting go of any thoughts/concerns/reactions through a breath and forgiveness in the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare me/my self worth to M by comparing the success she has with her hobby/career and the success I have in my life and job and judge who is better/more successful through the FOLLOWERS one has on social media, by seeing them as a celebrity, and thus seeing myself less than/inferior/not as good enough as them

From this, I commit myself to redefine the word celebrity, to release the connections and emotions and feelings I have towards the word because I have greatly polarized the word within me and allow myself to be influenced/directed by it

I also realize that M works in A SEPARATE BUSINESS/VENTURE THAN ME, so we work in different professions that require different skills and executions with our jobs, so there is no point to even compare our successes since a school job’s success is different than a social media job’s success. Also, it does not make sense to compare my self worth to success in one’s job/career, since the living word of Self-Worth has NOTHING TO DO WITH CAREER AND SYSTEM SUCCESS, but I have connected it as such!

I commit myself to redefine the word Self-Worth, clearing attachments the word has to success in the system and redefining it so I live self-worth within me and my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become excited when I see someone I define as a ”celebrity” as if they are someone ”special” separate from me, not realizing how I allowed myself to see and define them as ”special”/more than me in which I then perceived/saw me as not good enough/unworthy to be talked to

When and as I see myself become excited when I see/encounter a celebrity, I stop and I breathe. I realize and remind myself they are equal to me and that I have allowed society’s value of such people being more special than me to influence me, thus I now commit myself to take a breath, acknowledge their presence, say ”cool” to myself I am with them and not allow me and my self worth to be affected by their presence through self-direction of any movements in me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not good enough in the face of a celebrity, and that a celebrity/person who has many fans/followers should not talk to me because I am not equal to them in their success. I realize that celebrities who have millions of followers have that because of the career they are in/chose to be, that the industry is set up to allow them to have that type of fame, and does not define them as more or less of an individual in comparison to all other humans on this planet. So even if I had a million followers it doesn’t realistically make me any more or less than any other individual on this planet. Being a celebrity has it’s own construct/way of existing, and is different than other jobs in this world.

I commit myself to stay grounded when in the presence of celebrities, realizing their career is set up/constructed so that they do gain many followers and fans in order for the entertainment industry to continue thriving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that since I am ”not a celebrity”- a person with a large following/many fans, then I am not worthy to talk to or be in the presence of them, instead of realizing how I am not acknowledging my own equality and self-worth when in the presence of these people because in all honesty and reality these people are people, just like me, I am equal to them, it’s just that we as citizens of the world allowed these people to be given added value to look/be perceived they are MORE than us

I commit myself to live the word ”equality,” when I am with celebrities/people with a large amount of followers/fans, as a reminder of standing equal to them, not allowing myself to fall within self-inferiority/worthlessness

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the extent to which society/general world system places special value on celebrities, where then we as people make perceive them as godly, unreal, not of this world as a method of distraction from us to not see, realize and understand our own equality and worth and how we are being fooled by the entertainment industry, all in the name of profit/cooperation gaining money. I realize that if more people see that celebrities are just people, the entertainment industry would be threatened

I commit myself to bring forth common sense and awareness to those who see/deem celebrities as better than them/separate from them, and share the realization that we are equal to them but the industry does not want us to see that or else their system will be threatened

So how does this relate to my personal life, when I come into contact with people who I see as ”celebrities?” First of all, I need to accept my equality to them — that I am equal to them, that they are just like me — they have thoughts, emotions, personal problems and have bodily functions like us. I also need to gain a better understanding of who I am with the word celebrity, and align my self-worth to life.

I will continue more on who I am with celebrities in the next post. Thanks for reading!

 

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