275. Too Much Work / Little Play Time & Solutions

e9b0jn25rro-toa-heftibaI tend to become very stressed on Saturday mornings. E-mails have piled up, there are tasks that have been pushed to the weekend to be completed. What then happens is that I react in resistance because I don’t want to do these ”things” that I define as ”work” and I don’t want to do ”work” on a weekend morning –  I want to relax. Within this are excuses that I don’t get time off during the week to relax – that what I do during my week is not fun so thus, I should spend my weekend doing fun things, though when work piles up for the weekend, then I get stressed and react.

All the while what happens is that I missed out on realizing that I created a relationship towards doing things I like and don’t like and when I think I haven’t spend any or much time doing things I like, then I react and resist doing more things I don’t like. It’s really a stressful, limiting game I do unto myself, and it’s time to stop.

The solutions I see are as follows:

1) I require to assess my relationship to everything I do/must do in my life, understand the importance/necessity of each point (ie: why I am doing this), decide on what type of relationship I would like to create for each thing/task and who I am going to be within each thing/task I do.  Then look at outflows/consequences of putting off these responsibilities/tasks and what is a better way to get everything done so I am satisfied. Then I walk SF on that which I react to, to discover realizations, more solutions and free myself of limitation.

2) Write out what I would like to create, explore, do that I enjoy and then see how I can fit these into my daily/weekly life, so there is space for me to engage in self-creativity and enjoyment (ie: hobbies to develop, books, movies to watch, new recipes).

3) List out commitments I made to myself / others, and assess why I committed to them, and if I can still honor these commitments, or if I need to re-align / adjust them, making sure I am being clear with me – yes / no I can commit to it or not for real

From assessing all the points that I participate in my daily life, I then see how I can practically fit into my daily/weekly schedule. I will test this point out and report next week!

Self-Forgiveness on Experiencing Overwhelmingness on Weekend Mornings:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the experience of overwhelmingness and stress when I go into my mind and think of  all the things I need to do today/this weekend morning, and within that react within the thought that I can’t handle this all, that it is ”too much,” and within that go into a giving up and not wanting to do the things I saw in my mind, yet become conflicted because I know I have to do them.

Within this I realize I made tasks to do on a weekend morning emotional, due to me having a created a relationship that I shouldn’t do ”too much work” or things I don’t like doing on a weekend since during the week I have to do things I ”don’t want to do,” instead of realizing I created a polarity relationship and idea I must follow, where things I don’t like to do are existent/done during the weekday, and then doing things I like to do on weekends.Then when things I didn’t want or like to do on the weekday got thrown/pushed to the weekend, that’s when I react because I see I need to attend these points but I don’t want to, because that should not be done on weekends! Then I go into emotion and temper tantrums about it.

I commit myself to assess my relationship to each task and point I do, must do and complete during my week (including weekends) and through determining the relationship I created to each task/point of work I see if this relationship is best for me, and if not I move me into creating a stable/better relationship with the point/task, so that no matter what day it falls on, or what I need to do with it, I am stable and clear on my relationship with it

I commit myself to become more aware of me as the mind throwing up tantrums when I am overwhelmed/stressed/angry, to instead insert the living word STABILITY, and go back and see for myself what I need to re-asses, re-adjust and re-align in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I am the sole creator of my experiences on weekend mornings, that my anger, stress and overwhelmingness is completely due to what I have accepted and allowed in my reality, life and environment

When and as I see myself become overwhelmed/angry/stressed on weekends, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I had fallen into a relationship construct I created towards weekends and how/who I am suppose to be and do on weekends, instead of practically assessing what needs to get done within stability (and no emotion present) as I have created the consequences of my reactions, that I am like this because of something I had not clarified in my relationship with work/life. So within this, I realize I am 100% responsible for creating my in this situation, because I had not yet considered how I would like to create my life and how I am going to include all the commitments/points Iín my life in a way where I am satisfied/stable within what I do.

I commit myself to sit down with me and assess how I want to create me and my life, within stability, including all the tasks/commitments/work obligations I must perform/do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist and perpetuate a state of stress and overwhelmingness on weekend mornings – and from this what lays behind it is an anger – anger towards myself for not having a clear, comfortable and directive relationship and understanding within everything I do and being ok with what I need to do in the moment.

Within this I realize that all that is required is for me to stand back and assess who I am with each task and point I do, and to direct myself accordingly to what I see is necessary for me to live me in ease with what I do in my daily/weekly life

I commit myself to highlight the important points/obligations/commitments needed to get done and/or that which I committed to get done for myself, to understand what is needed in my life, and sort out where and when I will attend to these points and the consequences if I don’t so I am prepared on what to expect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create relationships towards things/tasks based on what I like and what I don’t like – creating an emotional relationship to each side of the coin/polarity instead of creating relationships to tasks/things within stability and awareness of the necessity, common sense and benefit of them

I realize that which I may not ”like” is needed to be worked on and done because it will support me in this life (such as keeping my home clean, for example – this will support in having a good home environment for self and the body).

I commit myself to forgive any/all reactions I created towards tasks/points in my life that I have created negative relationships to, and move/create the relationships into me being stable with each one of them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into anger – being angry at myself for pushing work to the weekend because I existed in the idea/belief that there should be no work on the weekends, and since there is, I go into reaction/emotion instead of a REFLECTION of how I created me to be this way

I realize I had never given myself the chance to reflect on how I created this emotional relationship to work on the weekends, and being stressed on the weekends and how there are ideas that weekends need to have no work, that I have all this free time to just have fun, instead of finding a work-play balance and keeping my relationship to work/tasks as stable as possible. I also realize the importance of maintaining stability within the tasks I do and to not give into the ups and downs/the sways of emotions and feelings, this that will screw with my work performance and I will not perform optimally and to the best of my ability

I commit myself to stabilize and purify my relationship to WORK and the word WORK so it does not have any energetic charges or connections to it that will influence who I am, but that this word can thus then be defined within a practical, common sensical, non-emotional matter

 

 

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

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Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

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260. Walking through Competition

Last Remaining PassengerI found a reaction towards people who supposedly seem to copy me/my work and use it for their work. There’s the want to take all the credit, want to be the only one known for something or have done something. But it’s impossible cause when work is shared and open and available people can use it, or become inspired by it.

What I realised within this is you will never win, there is never a most successful person. Success is defined subjectively and differently by everyone. Kim Kardashian can be known as the biggest star for some, even herself, but there is always competition, always someone or a few people one sees as fighting their way to rise to the top. Competition is a tricky nasty thing, but it’s existent in all of us.

And the point is – it will never go away unless we change our relationship to it. We can use it in healthy ways, instead of destructive ways. There is a solution to every problem.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in protectiveness over my own professional work when I see another has produced/created similar professional work like me because I think that they have stolen a part of my work/creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel defensive when I interpret/think that someone has copied me and my work and used it for their own work/benefit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I think/interpret/question if someone took/copied my work when I see their work and compare it to mine and see similarities/expressions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I compare my work to another’s work and see similarities by thinking/believing that they want to be better than me. From this I realise I am existing in paranoia, thinking and believing another is deliberately trying to be better than me/one up me by taking my work and making it their own and/or better.

I realise that real copying of someones work is actually replicating/using the original copy or creating it similarly deliberately. I also realise I need to purify the word ‘’copy/copying.’’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others copying my work, and doing so deliberately for their own self-interested benefit where I lose out of success and opportunities to succeed because someone was able to make profit or get more out of it than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the thought/idea that someone took and copied part of my work to make their work look good or better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards the idea that the person who has similar expression/work like me must have sneakily studied my work and took what she like with the intent of being better than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others taking my work and using it for their own self-interest benefit of being more/better than me and rising to the top

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I see work similar to mine by thinking they want to be better than me and within that, actually fear and create imaginations of how they could be better than me. Within this I realise this fear then creates the desire for me to work more, and harder to do what I believe will look and be better.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the drive to be better, and produce better work actually comes from the fear of others also creating themselves and their to succeed and be better than me, so that there is only one good product/producer of the work. I realise that this is what companies do (like cell phones) where they take from each others ideas and use them to create something more and better so they can be original/unique/the best, not realising that eventually their unique/great idea will be copied or taken and then used by the competition to create something better/more unique, thus perpetuating the cycle of driving self wanting to be at the top instead of creating a product that will benefit all, and support all in actually stopping the entire survival/competition construct in the first place!!

I also realize this is how the mind is – where the mind wants MORE – more energy and will do what it can to keep it’s survival continuing by fueling itself as it’s systems. I guess this is why we fear stopping our mind cause we believe stopping the mind we will die – when it’s that the mind is a system we are fueling and when we stop fueling the mind we realize we are more than the mind, but actually beings in our physical bodies. The key is showing people how we are not the mind, but much more than that. And when everyone walks through their mind, and releases themselves as the systems of the mind, can the system of the world really change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise the nature of competition, which is based on self-interest in wanting more, either money, or more chances/security of survival, to be at the top, and self will drive self naturally to do what they see is best for them in context of succeeding and getting more…because self is exiting in FEAR and lots of it instead of equally wanting to help self and others in creating a world best for all

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question the nature of competition and what life would be like if survival ceased to exist, if everyone had the security and safety of their life, absolutely

and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work towards a solution in creating a world where fear of survival is non-existent, and life and living is real/absolute. I realise the reason why I have not committed 100% to working towards this ideal world/heaven on earth is because I have given more value to my fears, survival and living, which really is tricky then to create something new like a world without fear if one is already in fear about their life/survival, how can you really move on and create when you are stuck in fears?

I commit myself to stop and breathe when I see myself wonder or fear if someone took/copied from me and my work. I realize I do not know in fact if they did and really it does not matter in the end because what really matters is contributing to a world that guarantees a life for everyone where fear of survival doesn’t exist.

I commit myself to stop fueling the fear of whether someone is intentionally wanting to be better than me, since if I fuel it than I will then drive myself in fear to want to be better than them when the entire point of working for a world best for all is missed.

I commit myself to shift my focus and thinking to working on myself to create a world best for all instead of how I can rise to the top with my own work, since rising to the top is an ILLUSION, just like how the mind makes things in your head seem real.

 

 

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Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships