Being the Creator of my Own Stress – 306

It’s a funny title isnt it? Being the creator of my own stress. But I realise I am…and reality showed me that with the following:

I was alone in my apartment. I usually work at home, so I was at the table doing my work. It was quiet outside with the occasional chatter of my neighbors. I got no demanding texts from my boss that triggered stress – I found the stress I had came from me PRESSURING myself in a sense of urgency and impatience to get my work done as soon as possoble so I can move onto other things.

I became like an authoritarian, soppressing the life and voice of the calm, common sensical me and pushed and drove myself hard within rigidness and no mercy within my work…

292. Response to: Considering the Small Things

I listened to a fascinating recording called Considering the Small and Not So Small Things with the Goat. Sunette with her gift, portalled a goat and well.. there were many surprises in the recording, so I won’t spoil them for you 🙂 Instead I’ll share what I’ll be taking from this recording, and that is humanityContinue reading “292. Response to: Considering the Small Things”

289. Redefining Giving Up

Give Up: Dictionary definition – To yield control or possession of ; surrender Self-Introspective Writing:  Giving up to me means the mind directs me without my decision — that somewhere somehow I allowed me to give up my self directive power and control to the mind. The mind consists of many dimensional layers (conscious, subconscious, unconscious…) asContinue reading “289. Redefining Giving Up”

277. Solutions from a Teacher Towards Children Hitting/Abusing Each Other

I’m a Teacher Assistant in a kindergarten and recently I’ve been looking at my reaction in fear and stress when I see a child about to attack (before) or after the attack. The reaction comes from wanting to save the children and prevent, shelter them from abuse and harsh and sometimes violent behavior of children.Continue reading “277. Solutions from a Teacher Towards Children Hitting/Abusing Each Other”

274. The Future of Education

I want to share a few memories/points with you, that will be explained more clearly soon: When I came back from holiday, and went to work (school) after greeting the children and settling myself back in the environment, no more than 5 minutes later there was a conflict between the children – in such aContinue reading “274. The Future of Education”

271. Standing up to Teenagers?

Today I had to remind two pre-teen girls in front of their friends to clean up the mess they left for a mouse cage they cleaned today at school. It is through the school philosophy the students (and teachers!) need to clean up after themselves. Though the girls basically tried to skirt around doing thisContinue reading “271. Standing up to Teenagers?”

267. Clearing Judgements on People Who Drop out of School

I noticed family programming in me that I accepted and allowed to exist and influence who I am when it comes to career and education… I grew up in a household where education and going to college is important. You basically have no choice and must go to college, or else you will get houndedContinue reading “267. Clearing Judgements on People Who Drop out of School”

267. Locked up and How to Get out

I had a dream last night that I got access into an American government facility and found out that they’ve locked up this alien / creature from another planet for decades. I had lots of fears towards this point I’d like to bring it out in the open with Self-Forgiveness: I forgive myself that IContinue reading “267. Locked up and How to Get out”

263. The Me in Process

I’ve been inspired by Dan’s blog: Self-Agreement and Anna’s Living the Word Me, so will write a similar topic of my own 🙂 ME has also been a word I’ve been using as a bridge-support-word when I see myself in a consciousness mind point, such as backchat, and I want to go into the self-sabotage point ofContinue reading “263. The Me in Process”