One of the key points I am taking away from EQAFE’s recording Time is the Present We Gift Ourselves – Part 3 is on suppression and the impact it has on your self, body and life.
I see I am allowing suppressions to exist in me, a pattern I have accepted and allowed to live and become through my family. Most specifically in regards to fears, or points coming up that I feel unable to direct and handle. This is because I have yet to find a way to handle/direct these points. And it’s so easy to just suppress/shove the point away, deceiving yourself temporarily in the belief that it’s not there anymore and won’t come up again, but it does come up in some way or another as an indication that this point needs to be faced, directed and resolved.
From this, the word RESPOND comes up — how do I RESPOND when fears/points come up in me, and is this a supportive RESPONSE?
A fear I don’t know / have the skill or ability to handle / direct: My Response = Suppress it
So I see that when fears/points I have not yet handled or found a way/solution to direct come up, I RESPOND by shoving and suppressing them, because that is a behavior I accepted and allowed from what I picked up from family and so, this suppression-response has become an automated pattern in me. However, I know the consequences of this – the more I suppress/deny/hide/shove the fears, the more the suppressions will build in me and it will come out in other ways – perhaps through not sleeping well, or panic attacks, or emotional outbursts, and in worst cases, illness and dis-ease.
The best way forward I see for me is to create my Response of fears/points from Suppressing to Embracing, and from that Embracing, Respond to what I need to do to direct / change myself from it.
So, instead of suppressing a point/fear, embrace/take the point/fear and look at how to best handle it (ie: do I need to write/open it up to understand it more, do I need to do research, do I need to talk to someone, do I need to walk self-forgiveness, etc). Because each point is individual/unique, it requires it’s own unique/individual response / way of being handled / directed and changed.
So I am going to play with this point – to instead of suppressing the point, embrace it, understand it, see what needs to be developed to change it, so it no longer haunts me or direct me anymore.
A fear I don’t know / have the skill or ability to handle / direct: My New Response = Embrace it, Understand it, Find what I need to Develop to Direct / Change myself from it, and Live the Change
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