283. Business Partners, Enemies and Money

business enemies partners moneyI forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an ”enemies’‘ list in my head of people I don’t like, that I believe have somehow wronged me in life and deserve to somehow get revenge from me

I commit myself to stop creating secret lists of people I like and don’t like and to stop locking me and them in labels / definitions, and simply work and clear the reactions I experience towards them all, so I stand equal and one with each and every single on of them without movement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even think and believe revenge is an acceptable form of getting back at someone, instead of realizing the best form of revenge is actually changing myself in a way that ends spite and nastiness, as being able to stand up and show/share who I am and how I changed for the better to inspire/show those I have placed on my enemies list how to change weaknesses into strengths and live in a best for everyone.

This I believe is the best form of revenge — is actually taking the insecurities, the regrets, and using them to live, to grow, to change and to become a better, more mature individual that can stand in integrity for oneself and all. No more do I allow myself to give into revenge or the desire for revenge since this form only perpetuates separation, conflict and destruction within oneself and one’s world.

I commit myself to stop justifying revenge as the best way to get back at someone since I realize it only perpetuates competition, separation, war, conflict, and destruction

I commit myself to change me into a better person, one who doesn’t want to seek revenge on others but instead uses situations/mishaps as points of learning, understanding, growing and expanding myself

I commit myself to start practicing being an individual who lives with integrity – clear of any form of hate or revenge for others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel quite distraught and angry thinking my enemy won – she got what she wanted – the project I created, and thus  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel really turbulent of emotional pain towards having lost something I created and built and wanted for myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what I had created and built and had given away to someone else to be responsible for was made by and through me within the small little decisions of giving my power, my authority away to someone/something I saw/believe was better than me at handling the project, instead of standing and working equal with them and creating a better relationship of trust and communication with them. So I realize the reason why I left and gave the project to my business partner is because I did not feel worthy or good enough of handling it, due to personal insecurities and not knowing how to build an effective business relationship with them

I commit myself to – whenever I started a project, to clarify for myself what I want, to make sure I am clear in what I am going to do and the obstacles I may encounter from it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to my business partner because they were — according to my beliefs – liked by everyone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to my business partner in seeing them as better than me through the idea they are more free-flowing and sociable than me, and thus more liked

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that free-flowing, sociable people are the most likable people instead of realizing this is an idea I formed in my mind due to me being attracted to people who are of such nature – that I personally like people who are free flowing and sociable/who communicate a lot. I realize these are words I would like to live for myself, since I am most attracted to them

When and as I see myself feel inferior to another, I stop and I breathe. I realize they are representing something to me I do not feel I am yet, and thus I commit myself to USE what I see in them as words to redefine, live, build and express within me

I commit myself to redefine and live the words free-flowing and sociable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame onto my partner for the audacity to start projects without my confirmation/approval, instead of realizing I had also done things without their approval, and this is because we had never started/made an agreement on how to decide/approve on projects and work together as equals, because I had never decided who I am with this project and what I want to do with it – my partner was more clear with what they wanted to do with it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to start a business agreement/contract with my business partner highlighting exactly what our roles/responsibilities are and that we must talk with each other before approving new decisions – that it is imperative we create a strong communicative relationship of constant support in order to move forward

I commit myself to when I start a project, to be clear in exactly what I plan to do with it and where I would like to take it and if people involve, who should they be and what kind of relationship must I create with them in principle of what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry within the thought that  I lost my project to my business partner because I believe they are going to make a lot of money with the project – more money than me. I realize I had seen this project as potential to make a lot of profit and so felt protective in wanting it all – money, fame, recognition, all to myself and thus did not want to share with anyone, instead of letting that desire go in realizing as the project grew, a team needed to be built, thus sharing of responsibilities and being open to other’s suggestions, ideas and perspectives should be welcomed.

I commit myself to redefine, live and express the word SHARE

I commit myself to redefine my relationship to money where it is no longer based on energy but practicality

I also realize I had not properly received nor educated myself on how to effectively deal with others, whether in business or casual settings. Also it shows I have not developed/created a stable, understanding relationship with me, which is most needed when living and sharing this world with others

I commit myself to build, and develop an effective relationship with me, which will eventually outflow into effective relationships with others

 

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279. UPTIGHT

jeffrey-wegrzyn-183858Do you ever fear others telling you are this and that? Like fear having people say this or that word about you? I discovered the fear of being called ”uptight” recently and decided to open up my relationship to the word here in this blog.

Within this is the fear of others defining, seeing and judging me as uptight because according to me, these characteristics are negative things to be, that people don’t like it, hey, even I don’t like it when others are what I define as ”uptight.”

I realized what I fear people saying/calling/judging me are words I fear becoming and also to confront me on where I’m living/acting out those words, because of my judgements towards them. So it’s really a matter of understanding and clearing the word in me and see if it can be turned into word of support.

My definition of Uptight: can’t relax, constantly stressed and only focused/obsessed on one thing, and because of that can disregard or not consider others because you’re so focused/obsessed/driven in stress and fear over this one thing and only wanting to get it done.

How I lived the word uptight: I was uptight with a project I managed with other women, wanting and trying to make it perfect… my only focus was on the project and making sure it’s going well with no problems. I existed in fear of things going wrong and fucking up so my time more focused on managing, building the project and doing things for the project than getting to know people within it.

So I was uptight because I felt like it was my sole/prime responsibility to take care of the project, like a mother but I was uptight because I was on it constantly, fixing it, managing it, changing things, fixing things asap or urging people to fix things asap. It was my obsession, my drive because it was my creation and I felt responsible for making it the best project ever. Yet I did not use the time equally to balance my work/effort I put in the project to developing and establishing better relationships with everyone to make sure all is cool. This is a lesson for me to learn – to not be so driven in FEAR and so focused on PERFECTING a project/creation, but to accept that it will not and can not ever be perfect and fit what you want. Best to work well with the team and learn as you go and laugh (and learn) at the mistakes and just move forward.

So I will walk self forgiveness where I forgive me for being uptight and even forgiving the emotional connections and words to being uptight.

my definition of the word ”uptight,” -someone who is bitchy and unable to relax because they are obsessed and/or stressed about something and will in that stress act out mean/bitchy to others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those who are to me “uptight” 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word “uptight”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others who live the word uptight

I commit myself to realize being uptight is combination of emotions and thoughts that self builds to live/express to be unable to relax, and exist/live out in emotions like stress, fear and anger.

I commit myself to realize that when people go into uptightness it’s mostly because they have not understood their own creation/making of getting there, and do not have the awareness nor tools on how to get them out of that state, thus –

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people  when I see them as UPTIGHT – which is someone who is stressed and/or unable to relax and thus they are mean/bitchy/inconsiderate to others, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that they are living out emotions/stress from the definition of the word without awareness of how they created themselves there in the first place

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear towards being perceived as someone who is uptight because I define being uptight as someone who is bitchy and acts bitchy to others and I fear being like that

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that if you are uptight you are a bad person, because of how you treat others from/through living uptightness, and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being uptight, to be seen or defined by others as being uptight because I have given the word/expression a bad/negative definition/label

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being uptight to being bad/a bad person by justifying how you treat others because of your uptightness is bad and makes you a bad person – instead of realizing that many factors and reasons are behind why a person acts out and is the way they are when living uptightness – that they are unaware of it, nor have the tools or capability to move/walk themselves out of it, or unable to understand themselves in the relationship towards being uptight. So within this I am humble in realizing when people are uptight it’s because they have no tools or skills or awareness of understanding how to move/get out of it, so instead just walk/live the uptightness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being uptight because if I am uptight I am bitchy, and I fear being bitchy, instead of embracing the bitchiness and understanding myself in relation to the word/expression.

I commit myself to walk and understand who am I as uptightness so I am able to understand how to walk out of it and into a more supportive living word/expression that I can show and teach to all

I commit myself to understand who I am towards bitchiness within living/being uptight and my fear of being bitchy/uptight

This I will continue in my next blog post. Thanks for reading.

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277. Solutions from a Teacher Towards Children Hitting/Abusing Each Other

michael-mims-130838I’m a Teacher Assistant in a kindergarten and recently I’ve been looking at my reaction in fear and stress when I see a child about to attack (before) or after the attack. The reaction comes from wanting to save the children and prevent, shelter them from abuse and harsh and sometimes violent behavior of children. Especially the ”innocent” who are so young/small and unaware of what is happening yet they will be victims of a child’s abuse.

The fact that bullying and hitting happens daily in the classroom makes me really concerned and worried for the wellbeing of the children. This is something I don’t want in the classroom, yet it is basically out of my control as I cannot control the children 100% and be aware of all the happenings of interactions at once to prevent everything bad/negative. Yes I have been able to stop things before they happened, but not all. I have spoken to many children during many conflicts, and yet the same behaviors happen over and over. There are a lot of factors to take into consideration about this: The happiness of the child, the way the situation/conflict is handled by the teacher, if the teacher has communicated the problem and solution well enough for the child to integrate it, parent-child relationship at home and relationship with conflict, social skills/lack of social skills…the list can go on as to the many reasons why a child hits and bullies in the classroom.

Looking at this more, I’ve come to see how we as adults exist in similar ways when it comes to harming others, like how children do – but in a more internal/controlled way. We allow ourselves to spite each other in our heads – saying mean things, imagining harming others because we’re upset and angry. Children are our reflection and do not have this control like us so they will act out on it in physical reality. Therefore, me reacting in fear is really pointless when I see children harming each other, either through thought, word and deed because on levels in me I must do the same.

Then it’s best to just get right to action in being able to deal with the aftermath of the conflict and find ways/solutions for such situations to be prevented in the classroom.

Self-Forgiveness & Commitment Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear and stress moments before I see a child hit or abuse another child as revenge towards something they are feeling/experiencing on an internal level. I realize that this type of response of revenge is our human nature, though not to be justified that it’s ok to exist in this, as seeking revenge or wanting to harm others when one feels a part of them is threatened allows the continuation of abuse on life on earth.

When and as I see myself feeling like a part of me is threatened and I want to seek revenge by making someone feel less / become weakened, I stop, I breathe and I understand what do I feel weakened in/threatened about,  and find solutions on how to direct the situation and strengthen my weakness so that I can exist in integrity and not cause unnecessary consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear and stress to the aftermath of when a child is hit or harmed because I fear they are going to be traumatized forever from that instead of realizing it is trauma enough the child has to live in a world where the humans around them exist on a mind consciousness level and not on a pure, physical life level, and thus have to deal with the words and actions from others who speak, act and think from consciousness instead of oneness and equality as life.

I commit myself to stand as an example for the children and children to come to stop participating in thoughts, emotions and ideas and instead understand them, direct them, clear them so that I can stand as a being not influenced by the mind as consciousness but stands for life

WORDS TO LIVE: Being an Example (for the children) of another way to live/be

I forgive myself thatI have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear toward the thought of the children are being traumatized from the accumulation of children hitting and abusing in the environment, instead of realizing this is just an idea I have, that I do not know how much a child can handle or process, and that taking care of my own reactions toward this point by not giving into fear is much more important – because each time I participate in fear with this idea, I am imprinting this into me and the physical, allowing such fears to continue and even manifest in the physical

I commit myself to stop thinking children are getting traumatized by the hitting and verbal abuse and instead realize the real trauma comes from consciousness and thus best for me to be purified of that, while finding solutions as a teacher/staff member to educate children on the consequences of their actions 

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276. Face the Weaknesses & Grow from Them

4uojmedcwi8-tim-bogdanovI identified a pattern/program where I go into fear and insecurity when a new task/assignment/project is given that I am not confident in and do not yet have experience on. I will go into those emotional experiences, and I suppress that because that shows a WEAKNESS of mine. Usually I would suppress these experiences because they reveal a weakness/something I don’t know or am not confident in, and from this I will normally then judge them or react in fear to the experiences showing my weakness. So it’s a program …

Wikipedia: A (computer) program is a collection of instructions that performs a specific task when executed by a computer.

So I have a collection of instructions that I as a being have accepted and allowed in me to act on when something happens, such as in this case – when I access a point of a weakness, something I am not confident in – I typically go into this program of reacting in fear or anger or judgement or worry towards the weakness – it’s a shield to protect me from understanding and seeing more into the weakness in general and instead of doing something about it, learning from the weakness and improving me as the weakness, I follow the program of reacting and suppressing and not doing anything about it

I know if I face it I face the fact that I don’t know something, I am weak in something, I need help in something, I am vulnerable in something, and that is something that is not ‘good’ in the ‘survival of the fittest’ system – for others and even me to see a weakness/vulnerability point.

The best solution I see within this is to actually acknowledge and see the weakness for what it is, understand it and then find a way to strengthen it.

Self-Forgiveness & Corrective Statements:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react negatively when I see a weakness or point I am not confident in, instead of dropping the emotion and instead working within understanding/translating it from my mind and finding a solution to learn and grow from it

I commit myself to when and as I see me react towards a weakness I see in my mind, to stop, breathe and forgive the specific emotion and find a way to learn and grow from it, because I realize the emotion/reaction is like a shield that protects the access to really understanding the weakness/problem in fact, because if I can understand it, I can change it

I believe I have taken on a similar program from my dad, where when I feel like my weaknesses may be exposed, I will protect it by reacting, to shield me from seeing more into the weakness or secret, even. What I realize is that this is typical response we all have built in us because in the world, any form of weakness could be used against us, and could threaten our survival, which means we somehow have created it this way in ourselves, where we use our weaknesses against ourselves – instead of nurturing and supporting ourselves to strengthen our weaknesses. This means we/I need to start opening up these weaknesses in a space of support, that no matter what I see and reveal to me, I will find a way, a solution to assist and support me to understand and walk through this weakness and act/live a solution that I can build/grow/develop from the weakness, so eventually the weakness becomes a strength.

I commit myself to create the safe space within me I always wanted – where when I face a weakness I acknowledge it and use the bridge word LEARN to move me to support me to learn from the weakness and find a solution to strengthen it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react strongly when I feel like my vulnerability and my weaknesses are being ”threatened” – meaning, they may be exposed or be revealed to someone because I am so afraid of what or how another may see me now. I see, realize and understand that I am afraid of being judged or seen as weak if/when my weaknesses are revealed and have them be used against me or the weakness/es are used to place a label and be seen as something/someone due to this weakness.

I commit myself to stop defining people according to their weaknesses, and/or using their weaknesses and problems as justifications towards why they are the way they are since weaknesses doesn’t define a being in their entirety

I commit myself to stop defining me and judging me according to my weaknesses and instead use every single weakness point of mine as an opportunity for me to get to know myself better, learn and grow from it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect having a weakness to it being a ‘problem’ and from it being a ‘problem’ react in fear towards it, by thinking ‘I can’t have a problem’ because then that shows to me something I need to work on and CHANGE in me

I commit myself to EMBRACE the problems I have and see them as gifts that give me insight into what I need to understand more, learn more from and develop into a strength – and move me to do so

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change and fear understanding and learning more about my weaknesses because I know and realize on a deep level these weaknesses also reveal a point of self-honesty and other not-so-pretty parts of me that need to change. I realize I will face my self-honesty as some point in my life/existence, and best to face it here while I’m here and alive. I can always learn, grow and develop from a weakness – it doesn’t have to stay a weakness – it can always be strengthened and changed, therefore –

I commit myself to work on every one of my weaknesses, to open them up, understand them, see where I fall, see what I need to develop, learn and grow from so I stop reacting and instead live free from reactions

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263. The Me in Process

photo-1427324301858-41039f1e0c32I’ve been inspired by Dan’s blog: Self-Agreement and Anna’s Living the Word Me, so will write a similar topic of my own 🙂

ME has also been a word I’ve been using as a bridge-support-word when I see myself in a consciousness mind point, such as backchat, and I want to go into the self-sabotage point of giving up/not directing myself, so I’ve been practicing when I see myself in this self-sabotage mind consciousness system point, I bring up the word ME, in the agreement and realization I actually as ME want to do this/walk this process/want to suppot me and stop this sabotage.

So I will move from consciousness as existing in backchats for example, to bringing up the word ME, in establishing that starting point of doing this process for me, (because it’s actually something I want to do!!! I want to better myself, create a better me, better life for me and all) and then I move myself to the appropriate self-forgiveness.

I will share some Self-Forgiveness that came up for me when I was experiencing fear. I looked at ME and saw what would be most supportive was to write out SF tonight:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk my process in fear because I don’t want to end up in consequence of NOT walking it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that if I fear consequence for not walking process, and walk as that fear, then my starting point is not real, not for me, genuinely and thus walking process from/within fear will not work in the end

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting or being given the chance to walk process again because of the idea I already fucked up, instead of accepting my position here, and realizing I am still here, breathing, thus I still have the opportunity to walk and correct myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like process is so daunting, and scary due to the absoluteness that it entails, meaning, you either walk process for yourself or not, and that when you face life you must stand equal/absolute to it or not, and that is it. I realize it is so because life will not accept anything less of itself, and it’s about time life comes through in existence, and that actually, it is best for me and for all to stand up for life, because it is what I want and for everyone to have!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the absoluteness of life because to me that means no more deceiving, bullshitting, hiding, avoiding, but taking responsibility and directing yourself to/as your utmost of what you can be. I realize it is so easy to fall into the trap of self-interest because I’ve/we’ve been existing as such for SO MANY YEARS it is going to take dedication and commitment to create oneself into/as Life. I realize I must embrace and accept what is here, as me, as the manifestation of me as the world, as what I see and from that ACCEPTANCE, can then move and change

Acceptance has been a word I’ve been living today – accepting my reality, accepting process and where I’m at. I know once you get to that point of acceptance, you can only move forward to change.

I commit to actually really walk me within self-support, self-love, doing this process for me, for real, changing myself that will support in changing the world

I commit myself to live the word ACCEPTANCE – accepting my reality as is, accepting where I am as is, because it is REAL in fact, and because who I am in the moment is real, and what I see in reality is real, I must accept it as is yet MOVE myself from this acceptance into self-change, practically by walking through each point/thought/backchat personality of my mind that does not serve me, nor support me in creating my best self, and move into correcting the past and creating new

I commit myself to use the word ME as a bridge between self-sabotage and support, where when I see myself want to avoid, blame, justify and/or hide from not taking responsibility of my mind/directing my points, I use the word ME as the reminder of why I want to walk this process, and as that Me of/as self-support, move to the necessary forgiveness, writing, or whatever I see supportive in the moment. I do this process for ME, as what is best for ME and all.

 

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260. Walking through Competition

Last Remaining PassengerI found a reaction towards people who supposedly seem to copy me/my work and use it for their work. There’s the want to take all the credit, want to be the only one known for something or have done something. But it’s impossible cause when work is shared and open and available people can use it, or become inspired by it.

What I realised within this is you will never win, there is never a most successful person. Success is defined subjectively and differently by everyone. Kim Kardashian can be known as the biggest star for some, even herself, but there is always competition, always someone or a few people one sees as fighting their way to rise to the top. Competition is a tricky nasty thing, but it’s existent in all of us.

And the point is – it will never go away unless we change our relationship to it. We can use it in healthy ways, instead of destructive ways. There is a solution to every problem.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in protectiveness over my own professional work when I see another has produced/created similar professional work like me because I think that they have stolen a part of my work/creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel defensive when I interpret/think that someone has copied me and my work and used it for their own work/benefit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I think/interpret/question if someone took/copied my work when I see their work and compare it to mine and see similarities/expressions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I compare my work to another’s work and see similarities by thinking/believing that they want to be better than me. From this I realise I am existing in paranoia, thinking and believing another is deliberately trying to be better than me/one up me by taking my work and making it their own and/or better.

I realise that real copying of someones work is actually replicating/using the original copy or creating it similarly deliberately. I also realise I need to purify the word ‘’copy/copying.’’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others copying my work, and doing so deliberately for their own self-interested benefit where I lose out of success and opportunities to succeed because someone was able to make profit or get more out of it than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the thought/idea that someone took and copied part of my work to make their work look good or better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards the idea that the person who has similar expression/work like me must have sneakily studied my work and took what she like with the intent of being better than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others taking my work and using it for their own self-interest benefit of being more/better than me and rising to the top

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I see work similar to mine by thinking they want to be better than me and within that, actually fear and create imaginations of how they could be better than me. Within this I realise this fear then creates the desire for me to work more, and harder to do what I believe will look and be better.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the drive to be better, and produce better work actually comes from the fear of others also creating themselves and their to succeed and be better than me, so that there is only one good product/producer of the work. I realise that this is what companies do (like cell phones) where they take from each others ideas and use them to create something more and better so they can be original/unique/the best, not realising that eventually their unique/great idea will be copied or taken and then used by the competition to create something better/more unique, thus perpetuating the cycle of driving self wanting to be at the top instead of creating a product that will benefit all, and support all in actually stopping the entire survival/competition construct in the first place!!

I also realize this is how the mind is – where the mind wants MORE – more energy and will do what it can to keep it’s survival continuing by fueling itself as it’s systems. I guess this is why we fear stopping our mind cause we believe stopping the mind we will die – when it’s that the mind is a system we are fueling and when we stop fueling the mind we realize we are more than the mind, but actually beings in our physical bodies. The key is showing people how we are not the mind, but much more than that. And when everyone walks through their mind, and releases themselves as the systems of the mind, can the system of the world really change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise the nature of competition, which is based on self-interest in wanting more, either money, or more chances/security of survival, to be at the top, and self will drive self naturally to do what they see is best for them in context of succeeding and getting more…because self is exiting in FEAR and lots of it instead of equally wanting to help self and others in creating a world best for all

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question the nature of competition and what life would be like if survival ceased to exist, if everyone had the security and safety of their life, absolutely

and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work towards a solution in creating a world where fear of survival is non-existent, and life and living is real/absolute. I realise the reason why I have not committed 100% to working towards this ideal world/heaven on earth is because I have given more value to my fears, survival and living, which really is tricky then to create something new like a world without fear if one is already in fear about their life/survival, how can you really move on and create when you are stuck in fears?

I commit myself to stop and breathe when I see myself wonder or fear if someone took/copied from me and my work. I realize I do not know in fact if they did and really it does not matter in the end because what really matters is contributing to a world that guarantees a life for everyone where fear of survival doesn’t exist.

I commit myself to stop fueling the fear of whether someone is intentionally wanting to be better than me, since if I fuel it than I will then drive myself in fear to want to be better than them when the entire point of working for a world best for all is missed.

I commit myself to shift my focus and thinking to working on myself to create a world best for all instead of how I can rise to the top with my own work, since rising to the top is an ILLUSION, just like how the mind makes things in your head seem real.

 

 

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257. A Kiss Driven by Love

photo-1444839368740-f0d3572f8067I found some writings on the experience of Love I’d like to share, where within the experience of love, one moves themselves to kiss someone:

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand I was being moved by consciousness energy of love, which is the polarity of fear

When and as I see myself be moved or want to move from / as the energetic experience of “love,” I stop and breathe. I realize I had been allowing myself to move me based on feelings as energetic experiences from consciousness, instead of moving me within awareness and a decision of kissing the person.

So I commit to STOP me from moving through/as/within consciousness energy of love, take a step back, breathe and assess what would be best for me now as a living being not defined/moved by consciousness. I can redefine and live the word “Directive” – directing me towards what I see best.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that being moved to kiss someone out of feelings of “love” shows me where I’m still at in my process – that I was not aware of how I moved myself according to feelings as consciousness energy, even when it feels so good – that is the point of these feelings is to control and direct one to do things from it, and as long as you participate in it, you are a slave and making a statement to yourself you accept being driven by consciousness as energy experience of emotions and feelings

When or while I see myself be moved or want to move to kiss someone based on feelings of love, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am making a statement to myself and Life that I would still be a slave to energy as consciousness (and not my own decison and awareness) if I give in and move myself to do this- that I still accept and allow myself to be driven by energy as consciousness of feelings and emotions if I continue to move/exist in a state or mind possession of energy like “love”. From this, I commit myself to STOP participating in the energy experience of love the moment I see myself exist/experience it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the emotion/polarity experience of love is fear and be moved by that

When and as I see myself exist in the enegertic experience of love, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am participating in energy as consciousness of emotions and feelings and am now on the feeling side of the polarity…so I commit myself to stop, and use directiveness to move me as awareness of what I should do and who to be in this moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by the energetic consciousness of polarity of LOVE- which is (positive) feelings

I commit myself to remind me (when/while I’m in/experiencing feelings of love) “oops I’m going into positive feelings now, which is part of consciousness energy and polarity. I will myself to not move from this but question where is this experience coming from?” And move me to source it and change by identifying what needs to be changed in the moment (ie: identifying the words/expressions of Love and becoming the words I have separated myself from, or simply breathing until the energy dissapates)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to act on the feeling of love, as consciousness energy because it “feels so good,” Not realizing if I give into the feeling and allow myself to be possessed/taken over by this emotional experience, I am allowing myself to drop/weaken me and my stand in the face of feelings, like love and be directed/moved by it.

I see that there is a “weakness” in me of moving and allowing me to be directed by/thru positive energy, simply showing that I have (created) a relationship with positive feelings where I seek to live/experience them or be/want to move myself in them that require to be understood, directed and changed

I commit myself to become more aware of who I am in the face of positive feelings and experiences since I realize I have created a relationship to them, and from this awareness, practice stopping and standing in/as a point of authority by not moving with or in positive experiences, and not seeking to gain positive experiences, but simply be with me here, in breath with my body

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize if I am experiencing, being directed and/or moved by consciousness energy of feelings (like love) I am existing in polarity of consciousness and need to get myself out of that state otherwise I am trapping myself in the polarity construct of emotions and feelings

When I see myself be moved or possessed in the feeling-experience of love, I stop and I breathe. I realize this feeling is from polarity of energy as consciousness which means it’s opposite is fear and so I commit myself to stop my participation and allowance of being driven in consciousness as energy states of mind/being, to breathe through the feelings to stabilize/ground myself, and instead use the energies as cross reference of where I’m at and what words or underlying points I still need to work on

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize behind the energetic consciousness of feelings towards X are simply WORDS I separated from myself that X represents and triggers for me, thus-

I commit myself to identify the words as expressions I separated myself from and find how use them in me and my life through the redefining and living process presented through SOUL

 

Additional Resources:

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships