I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shove things “under the rug” so to speak by not wanting to talk about or face a particular point that makes me uncomfortable because I realize that if I am to learn about, change and correct myself I have to face the point/problem head on, in my face, and I am afraid to experience the guilt and shame that comes along with it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face a point that I know that if I take it head on, if I face it by myself and see the entire context of it, with all the points of it, that I essentially face me and all that I accepted and allowed myself to contribute to and participate towards that point that had happened, and I don’t want to face the guilt, and shame.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and fear facing guilt and shame if I were to look more into a point, thus being afraid of myself and what I may experience if I were to look more deeper into the point/problem that I’m existing as.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the fear of facing myself, and fear of facing the shame and guilt is only an excuse/reason/justification to not face myself and walk this process to completion understanding all and every single aspect/point of me and what I exist as, how I live and participate within this world and from that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my power, my self-responsibility to the mind of energy, as fears, as resistances to use as protection mechanisms so I don’t face myself and see the point entirely as what I’m existing in.
From this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear experiencing/facing self-guilt and shame because I have defined these experiences as negative, and thus want to keep away/stay away from the negative within me.
I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to fear me, to fear myself and what I may “feel” or experience within me if I were to see what I did, not realizing how self-interest that is for me to not want to face myself as a point of change which is Best for All, but rather “save face” and not face who I really am because I am afraid of what I may see, so I’d rather cover my own ass than help/assist myself to permanently change for me and all, thus, not taking into consideration all as me and the importance of including all as me within my process of self-realization and change .
So – I am becoming aware of the extent to which I exist within self-interest, where I’d rather “save my ass/save face” to not face myself, my mistakes, and consequences. By not wanting to face what I have done, or to take responsibility, or “own up to my mistakes” is self-interest where only I am focusing on me and my life and not considering all others, as me and the point. By allowing myself to hold onto points, avoid facing them, not letting go/taking responsibility, I’m allowing others to do the same, and thus, the world continues as is where no one stands up and does something about themselves and this world.
I commit myself to walk this process within self-honesty.
I commit myself to walk myself through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to face myself, and see where I can change/correct myself to that which is something I can stand in and as within integrity and respect, where no shame or guilt is existent.
I commit myself to walk this process unconditionally, and if I find myself afraid to face a point, or resistant to face a point, to assist and support myself with the tools and resources I have available to understand the fears, the resistances and from there – push through them.
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