Self-Forgiveness on Fear of Losing Your Project/Business – 328

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I become emotionally invested in a project/business, I also become emotionally attached and thus fear to lose it, which in time, I do. I realize from listening upon an EQAFE recording that the more you ‘love’ something/emotionally invest in toContinue reading “Self-Forgiveness on Fear of Losing Your Project/Business – 328”

236: ”My Job is So Hard: Let me Feel Bad About Myself”

I started a new job — it’s a lot of work and information processing and I have the tendency of emotionally reacting quite easily towards it. This is what I found and walked: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate me into thinking and believing I have such a hardContinue reading “236: ”My Job is So Hard: Let me Feel Bad About Myself””

235. Got Money Problems in Your Relationship?

Today my partner and I went shopping for pillows and pillowcases. We found our pillows and then found a really soft, silky pillowcase that we really liked and wanted to get. We saw that the only way to purchase the pillowcase was to get it through as package which included the bed sheet too. However,Continue reading “235. Got Money Problems in Your Relationship?”

232. Opening Up Jealousy – Part 2 – Wants & Desires

 Continuing from:231. Opening Up Jealousy – Part 1 ”So how to stop nature of competition is to let go of primary self interest of wants, needs, desires and how you would manipulate your world and reality through and as jealousy.” –The Origin and Nature of Jealousy I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowedContinue reading “232. Opening Up Jealousy – Part 2 – Wants & Desires”

230. Insights about Alzheimer’s

I watched the movie Still Alice in preparation for my participation in the Desteni Movie Night Hangout with Joana and Marlen. One of the first points that came up for me while watching the movie was what would I do if I knew I have early-onset Alzheimers?  If I knew I had limited time toContinue reading “230. Insights about Alzheimer’s”

227. Expressing and Standing in my Words

Continuation from:Day 224: To become a Leader… Day 225: Fear of Being Disliked Day 226: Who am I if I Just Want to Please Others? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so afraid about expressing myself and who I am really in front of others because I am afraid toContinue reading “227. Expressing and Standing in my Words”

225: Fear of Being Disliked

One of the points I want to focus on tonight is how as an organizer of a women’s group I have a fear of being disliked, or not liked by other women of the group. This is something I have observed today when I met with one of my co-organizers and upon meeting her thereContinue reading “225: Fear of Being Disliked”

Day 221: What I Realized After Not Getting the Job

I walked some private Self-Forgiveness in relation to my reactions towards not getting the job I wanted, and certain insights and realizations came through that I want to share here: One of the points I realized from my writing today was how easily I create and give into certain ideas about myself and situations. ForContinue reading “Day 221: What I Realized After Not Getting the Job”

Day 220: Reality Clashing with Personal Desires

I react in anger to the thought/backchat that I did not expect to stay with my roommates for this long – that by now I should be living with my partner in our own apartment. But the reality is, we are not rich and we have to wait until an apartment within our budget andContinue reading “Day 220: Reality Clashing with Personal Desires”

Day 216: Resistance to Letting Go of Stress

Continuation from:The Fear that Drives my Stress in Work So today I saw I was stressed, and within me I saw that I should walk forgiveness, and that I can walk forgiveness on this point, but then this belief backchat of ”it’s not going to work,” comes up followed with an experience/feeling of not wantingContinue reading “Day 216: Resistance to Letting Go of Stress”