233. Jealousy – Wants & Desires SCS

Continued from:

When and as I see myself desire to go on luxurious paid trips, I stop and I breathe. I realize it is a desire and thus not practically here in this moment, so I assist and support myself to do some deep breathings and keep myself focus on stabilizing myself in my life and walking my process daily through real time application since I realize that is what really matters/is important now

When I see myself become jealous X through their pictures and reading their words of their adventures, I stop and I breathe. I realize that they are 1% of the 99% of people on this planet able to experience such luxurious/glamorous/exciting situations/events while the majority actually live in less-than-optimal lives and thus wasting energy of jealousy on someone’s life is USELESS because it will get me nowhere and does nothing for me except keep me emotional while I instead can use the energy to work on me and my process, so from this –
I commit myself to stop and let go the jealousy energy when I see the positive, nice luxurious and fun life of X and instead practice in keeping me focused and grounded and humble with where I am and what I need to do to keep me stable in my life and my self-relationship, improving who I am as an individual with what I do because I realize the bigger picture that with walking my process I can not only benefit my life but benefit the lives of others

I commit myself to realize only the 1% get chosen/picked through companies and organizations to attend these glamorous/exciting/luxurious events because they fit something the companies/organizations need/want in order to gain profit/attention and thus me getting jealous over someone who attends these events is pointless since such opportunities only fuel profit and the world system as is, where the companies/organizations do not care about you, but only care with what you can give to them to increase profit

When and as I see myself think and believe that I could have been chosen or that ”could have been me,” attending such glamorous/luxurious/exciting events when I see X at these places, I stop and I breathe. I realize that within me I can identify and see myself as being equally skilled and worthy of attending such events and yet I realize realistically I am not, and even though I really ”want to,” be at those events such energy on the desire of wanting to be there, and the energy of thinking/believing it could have been me attending those events are pointless and a waste of energy that can instead be used in supporting me in my life and process, so thus —

I commit myself to breathe and shift my focus from being jealous to asking the question ”how can I assist and support myself right now in this moment that will benefit me and my life?”

To be continued…

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225: Fear of Being Disliked

One of the points I want to focus on tonight is how as an organizer of a women’s group I have a fear of being disliked, or not liked by other women of the group.

This is something I have observed today when I met with one of my co-organizers and upon meeting her there was there very slight unsettling feeling/experience within me where I really had this desire to be liked by her, worrying and wondering if she likes me. I would observe her behavior, and for example when I saw she crossed her leg closest to mine over her other leg I took it as a sign that she was closing herself off to me and I went into a worry over what I did or what I may have been or looked like that made her close herself off at me. Thoughts within insecurity, worry and concern start coming up, where I question myself, and then thoughts of self-judgement and belief of ”I am awkward,” in relationships come up…I saw what I was doing in the moment and I knew this was a programmed pattern, that I did not have to believe in it, I saw the bullshit of it and I did not give into it completely, but I knew that the point was still there, I knew that the underlying problem/point of the fear of the women disliking me is what needs to be investigated.

If I am to be a solid, stable organizer of a group the least of my concerns should be about whether someone ”likes me,” I know it should not take over my awareness, me being here, organizing and interacting with the members in the group, but it currently exists in me so I am here to look into it.

So I will first begin with Self-Forgiveness over my interaction today with another woman.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear, worry and concern over another’s behavior where they crossed their closest leg to me over their knee because I believe that is a sign they are closing themselves off to me and I took that personally thinking I did something that made them feel uncomfortable because that is not what I want them to be — I want them to be comfortable with me, yet I did not realize that I did not take into consideration that the other does not know me as well I do so they walk their own process of being comfortable with me thus I assist and support myself to simply do what I can to be myself within consideration of who I am in this moment with another

When and as I see another cross their leg away from me and I go into thinking they don’t like me, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I only get this idea because of psychology information that this behavior means the person is closing themselves off, or in the case of males, they are in ego, but that I should not take such information to heart and personally, because I realize that I am giving too much attention and concern over whether another person likes me instead of focusing on what matters and what the issue is at hand and whether I am being supportive to myself another, so from this, I commit myself to assist and support myself to simply let this fear/worry/concern over another’s crossed behavior go and simply focus on what matters, which is the physical, what’s going on in the physical and who I am in this moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take another’s behavior personally where I interpret I am the reason they are closing themselves off to me, that somehow it is my fault that they are like this not realizing that I cannot expect another to like me immediately and warm up to me immediately — each has their own process to walk of self-comfortability in interaction with others and the best I can do is to be as stable and supportive as possible for myself and another

I commit myself to assist and support myself to remind myself when I am with others and see myself fall into insecurity, worry and concern over why another’s behavior is not looking so open and warm to me, to not take it personally, because I know I want them to be open and like me, but I cannot expect that they will be like this since they are in their own process, so I let the worry/concern go and just focus on me and what’s going on in the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I did something wrong to make the other person not like me or be as open to me as I would like them to be, giving so much attention/worry/concern over another I am not even looking at me and who I am giving my power to: my mind of worry and concern about others instead of focusing on me and who I am and whether I want to be like this

When and as I see myself go so quick into worrying that I may have caused another to be upset with me — that I am the reason why they don’t like me or is not open with me, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am giving my energy and attention to too much worry and concern over others instead of assessing for myself who I am in this moment and if what I am doing and being is supportive. From this I commit myself to assist and support myself to stabilize myself through times where I give my power away to concern/worry about others by directing myself to who I want to be in this moment, which is someone who doesn’t give a shit about what others think of them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be awkward because I believe and have this idea I am not good with friends, that I cannot keep a long friendship, I cannot have or get a connection with another female because I am ‘just awkward’ not realizing that I want and desire a cookie-cutter friendship that I have seen personally and on TV/magazines where girls are just so close with each other and do everything together, like sisters, but as friends, and I realize that is what I had wanted as a child, and I envied two girls who had that connection and life/friendship with each other and I wanted that because I really believed that is what would fulfill me in that moment, is that sort of friendship/connection, not realizing that such connections/friendships are limited and to only fill a void that is a result of self separating words from self, which means I have many words to realign myself to become fulfilled within me, in fact

I commit myself to assist and support myself to redefine FRIENDSHIP and also see what words I have separated myself from that I see female friendships possess that I want to stand and live equal to

When and as I see myself believe me to be awkward around female relationships/friendships as a form of judgement, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am not 100% comfortable with myself around others, like females, and this is because I have some past issues to work with when it comes to female friendships, so I use this opportunity to assist and support myself to stabilize myself while interacting with females and work with my friendship points so that I am stable and comfortable with myself when I interact with other women

Will continue in the next blog post…

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Day 220: Reality Clashing with Personal Desires

I react in anger to the thought/backchat that I did not expect to stay with my roommates for this long – that by now I should be living with my partner in our own apartment. But the reality is, we are not rich and we have to wait until an apartment within our budget and requirements come along, so this is going to take longer than anticipated. Impatience and irritation also come up. Existing in such emotions is not acceptable, because getting emotional is not going to solve or help the situation get better and will make living more problematic. I can’t get everything my way, I need to be patient.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger to the thought/backchat of ”this is taking longer than expected” and from this, I realize how manipulating this thought is, where it fuels my temper tantrums instead of realizing this is not the way to exist/live, but to really take things practically, be mature and walk space-time in being patient and doing what I can with finding a good apartment

When and as I see myself react in anger to the thought ”this is taking longer than I expected,” I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to give in/participate in this manipulative thought because I know where this will take me — into temper tantrums tendencies so from this, I commit myself to instead keep a cool head, be mature about this point by walking the apartment-process day by day, searching for apartments and practice breathing within/as patience of the point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak out in frustration to my partner, in a moment of reaction by saying ”I did not expect this to take so long,” as a point of blame, to project this problem unto my partner instead of taking responsibility myself in seeing that I am making it harder on myself and my partner for being so emotional/difficult, I need to be patient, because to actually get an apartment I need to actively search for them, and do the waiting, because this is how the process works, and this is what I need to do, this is how reality works, so making an emotional big deal out of it is unnecessary because the process that needs to be walked is what it is

When and as I see myself want to complain or project blame unto my partner about our living situation, I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to do this because I realize acting out in such an emotional manner will not do anything to make the situation better and that if I were to see myself act like this in the eyes of another I would not be proud/happy with myself, so from this, I commit myself to stop complaining and/or projecting blame onto my partner about the situation because I know it’s a temper tantrum/personality coming out and that even if I were to express myself emotionally, it still will not make the situation better, so I practice breathing through these emotions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger to the idea that the process of getting an apartment is taking so slow because I want an apartment now, instead of making peace with reality, in accepting my current situation as is, it is me who is making it harder than it should be

When and as I see myself react in anger to the idea/reality that this process is taking slower than I want, I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to give in/participate in the anger because I realize it’s best to make peace with where I am in my situation, realizing I am only living temporarily with my roommates and in due time will be able to have my own living space

I commit myself to investigate the temper tantrum personality that exists within me where I want my wants manifested now and if not, will make an emotional big deal out of it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger to the reality/self-honest fact that I need to be patient, that my wants are not going to materialize quickly, that it is going to be a process to get an apartment I want, because that it how it is, so I need to train myself to make peace with reality, with how things work, I need to tell myself, communicate to my mind-self that I need to be patient

I commit myself to write out for myself how I am going to be patient within this apartment-hunting process, how am I going to live patience while walking this apartment-point and practice it until I become patience

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the thought/backchat that we don’t have enough money to get a nice apartment quickly instead of realizing how I’m manipulating myself to keep existing/fueling emotions towards the reality/point that apartments will not be handed out to me, it is something I have to actively participate and do myself

When and as I see myself participate in the backchat/thought we don’t have enough money to get a nice apartment quickly, or ”if only we had a lot of money…” I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to give in/participate in this thought because I realize its manipulative where it will take me into generating anger, fueling my temper tantrum personality into then projecting blame/becoming emotional about the apartment-point. I realize this point comes from a personality, and I commit myself to understand this personality in more detail so I can find solutions on how to change it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to complain and throw my anger out towards another, towards my partner for not having my ”Dream/desire” manifest the way I want to because I want to have an apartment now, to have my own space, to be able to manage/organize/control my own environment, to be able to do things I want to do, go to sleep when I want to and within this can see I have control issues that come from my past where I have attached emotions to memories in my life where I have felt I have not been in control, where I couldn’t have things I wanted to because parents wouldn’t allow me. I realize, see and understand I have control issues that require to be investigated and changed.

I commit myself to change and stop my control issues and I do this by investigating, understanding and directing myself into what is best/most supportive for me in terms of how to change my control issues by walking the Desteni tools

Will look deeper into my temper tantrum personality and how to live patience in apartment-searching in the next posts, thanks.

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Day 210: Defining Myself According to Work-Related Feedback

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am better than another coworker by comparing feedback I received from others to the feedback the coworker received and from this, justify that I am better because of the ideas and beliefs I had previously formed of myself instead of realizing these ideas came from feedback I received from others when I was unsure and insecure of how I was doing at my job instead of taking the feedback as a cool point of support that what I’m doing is in line with my job and not go into ego, believing I am the best coworker at my job

I realize that I have used comparison to define who I am and since I had received more positive feedback than my coworker I went into ego instead of using feedback as a cool cross-reference of how I’m doing within my job, yet through ego I saw myself as being better than another, when in reality that is not true, I am always equal to what is here, even despite if I have received more positive feedback than another on how I’m doing in my job, does not mean I am not better than them

I commit myself to stop comparing feedback I received from others to the feedback I’ve heard about my co-worker as I realize the only feedback that matters is from/of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately take positive feedback from coworkers on how I’m doing to fuel my ego and ideas of myself instead of realizing this feedback is simply from how I’m doing within my job, and that what I am doing is accepted, approved and satisfying within the system, and thus does not actually reflect me, as the entirety of who I am, that for example, if I am doing a good job with something does not define me as a ‘good’ person as I see, realize and understand a ‘good person’ is a person who lives and exists within what is best for all, and thus I realize I have a lot of work to do to become what is best for all, as long as I continue to walk this process in self-honesty for me

I commit myself to stop defining me and who I am according to the feedback I get but to see this feedback as cross-reference with how I am doing with my job and if any improvement is needed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project in my mind my coworkers saying good things about me, comparing me to others in their mind instead of realizing the more I participate in this projection/imagination I am fueling my ego and the ideas I have of myself of being a ‘good person’ /better than others in the job that I do, and within this I realize what I do in my job does not define who I am, it is who I am within the job that I do that matters, thus even if I were to do a perfect job at my work, I can still exist within ‘evil’ participating in backchats, judgments, etc – that which basically fuels abuse and separation in this world

I commit myself to stop myself when I see me use positive feedback according to how I work before it ‘gets to my head’ a.k.a ‘fuel my ego’ and instead shift myself into using/taking that feedback as cool cross-reference that I am doing well

From this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question my participation within projections and thoughts about who I am at work, that I had been fueling my ego through participation in projections, thoughts and beliefs instead of considering who I am and what I am accepting and allowing when I allow myself to separate myself from others by existing in ego, and ego is nasty

When and as I see myself participate and ‘play into’ projections/imaginations and thoughts about who I am as a worker, whether positive or negative, I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to participate in the projections/imaginations and thoughts since I realize the more I allow myself to ‘give in’ and participate in my mind the more I am allowing myself to be defined by the mind instead of me defining me, and deciding who I am and how I want to live

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Day 207: Underestimating Language Skills

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when someone asks me a question in German to automatically say to them ‘I speak English’ instead of actually listening to what they just asked and see if I can comprehend them and answer back before I automatically give up within myself and say I speak English.

I see realize and understand that the last 2 questions I got from strangers in stores I actually did understand them if I had given myself a moment or two to comprehend/translate it in my head, but because I had already formed a belief and fear that I can’t/won’t be able understand them, i gave up and told them I speak English.

When and as someone asks me a question in German and I see myself go into fear of not being able to understand them, I stop, I breathe and I let the fear go and see if I can actually understand what they just asked because I realize the last two situations I’ve had with German speakers was that I actually did understand what they asked but automatically and easily said ‘I speak English.’ I realize I am underestimating myself with my German skills, that I so easily give up within myself instead of giving myself a chance to interact in German, so I commit myself to assist and support myself to expand my German communication skills by being open to questions and interactions from German speakers, and continue to study/practice the language, as I see this will assist me in becoming more confident with the language.

I commit to give myself a few moments when someone asks me a question in German to first test my understanding and if I do not understand them or can’t answer back, then I honestly communicate to them that I don’t know, I speak English.

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Day 203: The Idea I Must Know EVERYTHING – Part 2

Continuing from:
Day 202: The Idea I Must Know EVERYTHING

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others when I do not receive enough/any information that I requested from them because they don’t know/don’t have that information because I realize that I expected and believed that they know the answer and when they don’t GIVE ME what I wanted/the information, I react. I realize that I make it an emotional point in my mind if someone I think/believed/judged has the answer does not actually have it. I do not want to hold expectations or ideas about what people may know just like I don’t want people to place expectations on me but I see if others have shown/proven what they are skilled/knowledgeable at in a certain area that’s cool cause then I can see where they are knowledgeable at but not make it emotional if they can’t provide the support I require

So, now what opened up is the pattern of: when I do not get/receive the answers/information I want I react within judgement and/or the emotion like irritation. There is one example where I asked someone about a famous building, wanting to know some history behind it and the person could not answer my question (they did not know) and I went into judgement, expecting them to know and I assumed/got the idea they should know about this building because of how long they’ve been living around the area. However, when I got to know the person I found out that despite being close to the famous building they rarely walked by it and got to know about it due to their life and living experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into judgement when another does not have the information or answer I expect from them instead of realizing I formed an idea/opinion about them that they know the answer and I put my trust into this idea instead of actually cross-referencing with reality by asking them genuinely if they have any information or answers, and within this I realized I had trusted an idea in my mind that they do know the answer/have the information based on assumptions according to who they are and where they live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust the ideas in my mind about another having a certain amount of knowledge or information simply from assumptions I made up due to ideas I gathered according to how I perceive who they are, where they are from, their life/etc and when those ideas to do not match up to reality I react

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect and WANT an answer from another when I ask them a question and when they don’t have the answer for me, I react in anger and frustration and within this I realize I have the desire to want things NOW and when I don’t get things I want NOW (like answers) I react not realizing it’s me as the mind throwing the tantrum because I am not getting my desire fulfilled immediately and thus must be patient and consider the other person/situation which means I must set aside my self-interest and the desire of getting what I want immediately and consider reality and the people I am around.

I can see how the point of reacting when I don’t get things my way influences who I am within and around others. This is a point I am going to flag point and walk through in other blog posts. I am going to right now just focus on judgement when I do not receive the answers or information I need/want.

Self-Commitments & Self-Corrective Statements:

When and as I see myself go into stress expecting me to know a lot of information about a topic/subject within a short period of time, I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself participate anymore in the stress and self-pressure but focus on my breathing and relaxing my body as I realize that it will be a space-time process of learning and educating myself where it will take time to do this and thus I commit myself to stop expecting and placing pressure on myself for needing/having to learn a lot of information within a certain time period and simply organize my time to walk each point of information I need to know/educate myself on within my own self-study pace as practical as I can, letting go of any stress or tension as I realize I can only really take in so much information at a time

When and as I see myself go into self-judgement about “I should have known this/I should know this because I live here” I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to participate in the judgement as I realize this point comes from my ex-boyfriend who made judgement/criticism about my lack of knowledge on my town and I took that personally and from this I realize that while it’s helpful/supportive to be aware and know one’s place of residence/area it doesn’t mean self is less than or inadequate to another if one doesn’t have certain information/knowledge on one’s town/residential area, it simply means self doesn’t have the knowledge/information existent within them and so, is supportive to learn for oneself more about their place of residence

I commit myself to educate myself on my residential area so I am aware of what is around me and if any fear or doubt towards not knowing something about my residential area comes up, I EDUCATE MYSELF so I know the answers/know about my area

When and as I see myself react in fear and/or helplessness towards not having information/knowledge about a certain part or building of my residential area I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to participate in the fear/helplessness as I realize that I do not have the information/knowledge existent within me thus there is no point to react to this point as I realize I am not perfect and I cannot give everyone all answers as I am also new to this area so I am still in the process of learning myself, so I commit myself to give myself a break and stop beating myself up for not having enough information/knowledge to please/satisfy another’s question as I am still in the learning process myself, learning about my area, and so within this, I can use what I do not know about my area to actually seek out the answers so I can assist myself and another in learning more about my area

I commit myself to let go of any judgement I may have towards another who does not know the answer or can provide information/knowledge that I want/would like to know as I realize that this point of judging another for not having information comes from my upbringing in school or family whereas if I do not have answers the possibility of being judged or ridiculed is most likely when really the point behind this is competition/survival of the fittest and ‘who knows it all,’ because the one with most knowledge and information succeeds and does well in school/the system.

I commit myself to investigate the “Give Me What I Want” character/personality as I realize it is harmful and spiteful to exist within it as I only consider myself and my wants instead of others, equal to/as me

I commit myself to accept the reality that: if someone doesn’t have an answer for me, they don’t have an answer for me, and thus I take it on myself to seek for the answer myself or assist the other in finding the answer for me

I commit myself to ask specific questions to see if I can receive the specific information/knowledge/assistance I require

When and as I experience the desire/energy of wanting an answer NOW I stop, I breathe and I do not allow myself to participate anymore in this energy as I realize that it’s a self-interest point where I am driven to get things my way now instead of considering space-time reality and others. Thus I commit myself to practice and live patience within my day to day life by first exploring and redefining the word myself and then practice becoming it in fact, all the while breathing and practising remaining here when I see myself go into energy/emotion of wanting to get an answer NOW.

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Day 195: Self-Correction for Judging Another’s Looks to Their Age

Continuing rom Day 194: Judgements over Looks & Age

I commit myself to practice stopping myself before I speak out positive judgements or opinions about how another looks according to their age to make them feel better because I realize I am doing nothing but putting on a band-aid to soothe any “cuts”  or insecurities they have so I stop myself through breathing and forgiving/letting go of the urge and moving on to what I need to do

I see, realize and understand that I made a mistake – a miss-take, where I spoke out of an urge to soothe or comfort another when really I should have breathed and continued to participate in the interaction.

When and as I see myself within me think/judge “she/he doesn’t look their age” positively, I stop, I breathe and I forgive the comment and let it go because I realize it’s a layer that will pop up time and time again because I conditioned myself to judge another positively if they ‘look good’ for their age, and commit to stop judgements towards myself and others as I realize how one looks depends on many factors and so, any judgements — positive or negative I have towards another is energy and must be forgiven

When and as I see the urge to say speak up after someone mentions their age in a tone of what I perceive to be shame or embarrassment to make them feel better, I stop, I breathe and I let the urge go and continue to hear what the person is saying and participate within the conversation if the opportunity comes up because I’ve gotten ideas from what I’ve seen on tv and in the world of women interacting with each other and complimenting each other when really it’s more of soothing fears and insecurities

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