224: To Become a Leader…

I got the chance to organize an event for international women to come together, meet and make new friends at a nice restaurant. Since I was the organizer I got there early and planned to make sure I greet everyone who comes, as well as say goodbye, and get to know as many women as I could. This opportunity also allowed me to make new friends in the city I am living in, which is really cool!

So, there are many points I’d like to share that I have discovered and realized when I attended this event, but I will take one point and write about it in its own post blog over a series of blog about becoming a leader, or an effective organizer of a group. Because since I am the leader/creator/organizer of the group, I realize I have a lot of responsibility, not only from a managerial side, but from a standing-within-principle side, where it is my duty and responsibility to treat each member of this group the way I would like to be treated, and to become the organizer/leader of the group that stands within principles of what is best for all. This means, no judging of any member, speaking within support and never gossip, accepting and welcoming all who are interested, and stopping any form of comparison or competition within me.

Because I have seen these points come up in my face as I interacted with the ladies in the group. I saw how my mind went into judgement, into comparison, into not feeling good enough/self esteem issues, into worry about people not liking me, into competition towards other woman… points that I saw that are not cool and not what should exist in an organizer/leader of a group.

I met with an individual the other day and thought that they were very judgmental and it made me realize that I don’t want to be like that as a person/leader. Then later someone assisted me to see how I within that had actually done exactly that — I was judging the other person for judging, which I didn’t see when I was in the situation –  thus showing me exactly that what I had seen in another still exists in myself and I could confirm the realization that: that this is not the kind of leader I want to be, and  I still have work to do in myself to create myself as the leader I want to be.

So — I am going to from here on start a blog series focusing on becoming and creating myself into an organizer/leader that stands and exists within the principles of what is best for all.

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Day 218: Realizations from Being with Children

I got invited today as a potential candidate for an English pre-school to come in and play with the children for a few hours. This allowed me to meet the other staff members, get a good feel for the job to then be determined if I would be a good fit there.

While I was with these children, aged 1 1/2 to 3 years old, I had many realizations. Here are some I wrote down:

1) They’re cute, but don’t let that get to you.

I saw myself go into like the ‘awww she’s so cute’ point, thinking that this little girl is perfectly sweet and nice. But then I observed how this sweet looking little girl actually caused some problems in the class, biting children, hitting them. So the girl’s behavior was not aligned to an idea I had of her, and of course, this does not make her a ”bad girl” — she could have only picked up/acted on such behaviors from us (humanity, parents, caregivers, teachers, world).

So within this I realized the following: looks can be deceiving, and this even applies to our society and world in general, where in the media we can become so captivated by an actress or actor and think all these good things about them, but we really don’t know the reality of them, just like how we have ideas of ourselves, perhaps thinking we are good people because we give to charity, but not realizing how we give to charity because it makes us ”feel better” as a self-interest point instead of consideration that charities are simply band-aids and do not actually help the poor for the long-run, it only helps them temporarily. So basically I saw here how I need to stop easily assuming or interpreting how another is, based on how I ”think” they are according to how they look.

2) The ”mine” point:

I have seen instances of children saying the ”mine” and not wanting to share with others. Even the word ”mine” sounds like mind, lol.

I see this as where a child says ”mine” as a form of fear because what I interpreted when I went over to this girl and asked her if her doll is sleeping she said ”mine” and brought the doll closer to herself, so I wondered if maybe she thought I was going to take it from her, which also brings me to the point of survival of the fittest, how we fear losing money or things in our lives that can threaten our life. We are basically programmed to survive. I mean it’s in our DNA in a way — we must survive, because the world we live in today is built on competition and survival where we really cannot trust each other because our world is hostile, it is insecure, we do not have a secure monetary system based on consideration of all beings on the planet so that everyone, humans, animals even plants have all basic needs fulfilled to live on this planet, and because we don’t have this, we don’t have a secure world or monetary system — we are insecure, we are in fear all the time, we must live based in survival, ”working to survive,” essentially.

3) We need more education about how to work with children:

Some basic ”troublesome behaviors” of 2-3 year olds are pulling hair, screaming, basically acting out in ways that make the environment stressful for others. What we usually do is say ”stop, don’t do that” and if the behavior continues, we put them in the time out chair. The problem I see within that is that we don’t communicate to the children about their behavior, the consequences of it, how it effects the other person, and especially in the case of 2-3 year olds, this is very hard to communicate such things, to talk about consequences.

Their behaviors must then come from us, the caregivers, the parents, the teachers, because of how we exist within. For example, there is a blog from Leila on parenting and why babies throw temper tantrums, and it was pointed out that as a parent, when you really want to do something, but unable to and throw a tantrum about it in your mind, babies pick up on that and see how you accept and allow it, so then over time, babies then develop that temper tantrum tendency because of how we as parents or caregivers allowed it to exist in us.

We require more education on how to effectively work with children, and that does start with working with ourselves in understanding how we exist according to our minds because who we are/how we exist in the mind makes a big impact on our children.

Fortunately, as of late, there have been audio recordings on parenting and how to work with the mind so you as a parent, teacher or caregiver can learn how to become stable for your children. It’s on EQAFE.com — I definitely suggest you check it out.

Additional notes: I can see it for myself that when working with the young children it’s important to remain as stable as possible because if you allow yourself to go into reaction, it will affect how you speak, how you move, and how you are, and children will see it and pick up on it — they naturally look to us as examples so when we don’t breathe and sort our reactions out but allow them to remain within us, the kids will assume that reacting and holding onto reactions is okay and will then develop that pattern as they grow up. In general, children I have met are more easily able to let things go, which is cool.

That is what I have for today. Thanks for reading.

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Day 187: The Word: SELF

Continuing from:
Seperating myself from…myself

Part 1 of Investigation of the word Self-Commitment

Let me first look at the word SELF:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word SELF through defining SELF in separation of myself instead of realizing SELF is ME as who I am currently existing right here, right now. I see, realize and understand that SELF is me as beingness as life-potential. I see, realize and understand that SELF is who I am and what I’m currently existing/living as right here and right now.

Sounding:

Sell-f, Shelf, Cell, I am one cell within a body (the universe) I am a part/cell of the whole/body and therefore I am not alone, I am an integral part of the whole/body because I am a part of it, I come from it and I can’t leave it

Dictionary Definition:

self

noun, plural selves.

1.a person or thing referred to with respect to complete individuality: one’s own self.

2.a person’s nature, character, etc.: his better self.

3.personal interest.

Okay, so ‘complete individuality’ I can see in relation the the word SELF. I see SELF as ME and I also see SELF as a part of the WHOLE. SELF as a cell in a body, it is a part of the body and is there to exist/do its part. So within SELF there is responsibility as well since SELF as CELL has its part/job to do in the body which means I have a part/job in this world, I am am integral point to its existence and I have the responsibility to support the whole/body and do my part because I come from it, it is a part of me/I am a part of it. I also see the part of individuality that I have a unique expression that is ME as SELF as WHO I AM as BEINGNESS as LIFE-POTENTIAL. Each individual/being in this existence has their own expression that is unique and individualized and we all come from the same source/body/whole yet individual/unique.

New Definition:

Self is ME as WHO I AM currently existing here in this moment

Practical Application:

Within SELF-honesty I look within to see who I am and what I’m currently existing and assess whether what I’m existing as/accepting and allowing is best for all or requires correction/change

Within SELF-Forgiveness I take responsibility for what I see I am currently existing that is not Best for All and from that, set forth direction to change

Within SELF-Writing, the writing is focused on me and what I’m currently existing as within what I see requires to be changed

Within SELF-Corrective Application I walk ME as who/how I currently exist as into change as correction, correcting me and/or training me into becoming/living in a way most supportive for me, as SELF as a part of the WHOLE/BODY of the universe

This is a work in progress. As I walk my process more dimensions/points about who I am as SELF/the word SELF will open up

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Day 122: Longing to be a Child Again

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Today I was with some family members and went to a park that I use to go to when I was a child.  When I was there I thought about how much happier I would be if I were a child again, playing in the park, not having to worry about the real world or moving.  I experienced a mixture of sadness, longing and a desire to wish to be a child again. I saw the point of ageing and time and how I realized that time does not stop – we grow older every day, every minute and there are some reactions I have towards time which I will investigate in another blog, however, the experiences were prominent when I was at this park.

long·ing

noun
1.strong, persistent desire or craving, especially for something unattainable or distant: filled with longing for home.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be preoccupied with thoughts of me as a child playing in the park when I was at the park with my family and from this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed with energies of emotions of sadness and longing to be a child again through participating with thoughts of me as a child playing in the park.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define playing in the park as a child as happy times that I can’t get back through manipulating myself to believe I can’t ever enjoy myself like that again, manipulating myself to desire/long to be a child again instead of realizing this type of thinking/mind-set in no way supports me/all within who I am but actually sabotages my opportunity to enjoy myself as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate me with emotions of longing/desire to be a child again through perceiving that if I were to be a child again I would be happy with no worries and/or stress. From this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I can exist without worries and/or stress “like a child” as an adult here through a decision and a commitment to live a life stress and worry free by investigating solutions for and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to assist and support me to enjoy the moment as me, as how a child enjoys themselves when I am at a park.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept myself right here as an adult and accept the responsibility I have as me as an adult and from this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking full responsibility of myself, my life and the decisions I make without my parents guidance and/or assistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive making decisions on my own and living my life without the guidance and/or assistance of my parents as “scary”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive being an adult as scary and being on my own without mom and dad as scary, instead of realizing and accepting the knowledge and skills I have to be on my own and to assist and support me to find solutions for myself and therefore, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself on my ability to be/live on my own as an adult.

When and as I see myself go into an experience of sadness or longing to be a child again, I stop, I breathe and I let go of the reactions through realizing that I am an adult, I cannot go back in time but I can enjoy myself right here and right now. I commit myself to stop manipulating myself with emotions of longing/desiring to be a child again but accept who I am now as an adult.

I commit myself to accept me as an adult and the responsibility that comes with being an adult.

I commit myself to develop self-trust and self-acceptance within who I am as an adult through investigation of thoughts/feelings/emotions/backchat/behavior in writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.

I commit myself to stop manipulating myself to want to be a child again by stopping participation in thoughts/feelings/emotions as energies and use breathing to bring me back here.

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Day 73 – 75: Resistance to Writing – Thought: "Me Writing but Being Frustrated"

I am applying what was suggested to walk through when it comes to resistance through doing certain things, like responsibilities such as writing from  Fighting Resistance vs. Moving Through Resistance.

Here I’m noting the thoughts, physical behaviors, energies and backchat involved when it comes time to write and who I am when I am about to write.



Thoughts:
Me in the process of writing but being all frustrated.
Me writing the next day diligently and focused.
Backchat:
“I can’t see anything… there is nothing to write about”
“I just don’t want to do it…”
“So and so hasn’t written in X days…”
“They’re not doing it, so why should I?”
“I see no point”
“I don’t care “
“I can’t do it, it’s too late”
“I’ll do it tomorrow”
“I’m not doing it”
“I’m too tired”
Energy:
Irritation, dread, apathy, frustration, hope
Physical Behaviors:
Checking Facebook, checking my iPod, going to Instagram, dancing, eating, physical distractions and time wasters from actually sitting down and writing. It’s like when I see I have to write, I will move me to do whatever else I can do instead of sitting down and writing.

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Self Forgiveness on Thoughts:
Me in the process of writing but being all frustrated.
Me writing the next day diligently and focused.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought-image of me in the process of writing and becoming all frustrated to exist within and as me as I see, realize and understand that when it is time to write the image will pop up as an attempt to stop me from writing because I see that I do not want to go through the experience of being frustrated and uncomfortable within the writing process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define writing as “frustrating” due to an image of me in the process of writing being all frustrated when I see, realize and understand that the image is an illusion, it’s not real, and yet I followed such an illusion and believed such an illusion that writing is frustrating but now I see a memory in connection to this thought-image where I wrote a blog post about Equal Money System a while ago and spent much time on it because I wasn’t exactly clear on what I was writing about, and it was within not being clear that I experienced frustration.

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the thought-image of me writing in frustration to the memory of me writing an EMS blog post and spending much time on it because I was unclear on what I was writing about and from being unclear, I experienced frustration.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an energy-relationship to the thought-image of me writing in frustration by holding onto onto the memory of me writing the EMS blog as the reason why “writing is so frustrating” instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I created frustration within that experience of writing because I was not entirely educated on the EMS and used the limited info I knew to create a blog so I could feel part of the group of EMS bloggers instead of actually studying the EMS to an understanding where I am comfortable and confident to write a blog post .

From this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect writing to the idea that it is frustrating.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I will be frustrated if I am writing in separation of myself, such as attempting to write a certain way to appear a certain way or impress people because I am not writing as me .

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will become frustrated when I am writing my Journey to Life blog, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that currently as I’m writing I am not experiencing frustration because I am not thinking or planning what to write, I am just writing what is coming out, so the thought-image of being frustrated when writing is an idea due to a memory when I tried and attempted to write a certain way to impress others and from that separated myself from writing and experienced frustration.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write in separation of me, writing from the starting point of wanting to fit in and be seen a certain way instead of just writing as me within my process of self-honesty as everyone’s process, writings and self-honesty is unique, therefore, if I write in separation of me, I am the one sabotaging my process of self-change and realization, so I’m only harming myself, and I don’t accept that.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the thought-image when it comes up when I see I am about to write, as I see, realize and understand that the thought-image is showing me an idea I have about writing that I created from a memory and I have the power to let it go and not follow the thought.

I commit myself to not follow the thought-image of “me writing but being frustrated” to direct me not to write as I see, realize and understand this was an idea I created from a memory I’ve held onto justifying why writing is frustrating, yet I realize writing is not frustrating as long as I write in self-honesty as who I am and what is existent within me and not from a starting point of separation of writing to be seen a certain way or impress others.

When and as I see it’s time to write and the thought-image of “me writing but being frustrated” come up, I stop, breathe and speak aloud “I’m writing now” and then actually DO IT / WRITE because I see, realize and understand that I have the power to let go of thoughts and not allow them to effect me but make a self-directive decision to write for me for and as self-support as what is best for all.



Day 65: Postponing Responsibilities – Self Commitment Statements


A continuation from the previous blog post titled: Postponing Responsibilities

I commit myself to every day when I wake up in the morning to make sure I write down on a notepad the responsibilities I need to do within my day and from there, walk my day, making sure I fulfill those responsibilities as I practically as I can.

I commit myself to stop being lazy by disciplining myself to do my responsibilities as practically as I can on that day, making sure that the priorities get done first because I see, realize and understand that the consequences of not completing my responsibilities of the day is not cool and it’s unnecessary for me to postpone because I have to get the responsibilities done eventually so it’s best not to waste time.

I commit myself to investigate privately and self-honestly within myself why I do not want to do my responsibilities and utilize the tools of writing, self-forgiveness and self honesty to understand what is behind this avoidance and postponement pattern so I understand where it’s coming from and how to best  direct myself within the pattern so when the pattern of avoiding or postponing the responsibilities come up, I know how to handle / direct myself.

I commit myself to push myself daily to: write myself out to see what I am accepting and allowing and existing within and as, and push myself to use self-forgiveness to take responsibility of what I have existed in and as, and use and walk self-corrective statement to actually LIVE and BECOME  into and as that which is Best for All.

I commit myself to in writing, to make it clear for myself the importance of doing daily responsibilities, as well as what the outcome would be if I continue to do such responsibilities so if I ever fall into the same point / patterns again, I remind myself of what I realized / discovered / found out about the importance of doing such responsibilities and how supportive / cool it is for me.
 


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Day 64: Postponing Responsibilities

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lazy within my application of doing responsibilities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my responsibilities and that which needs to get done today by postponing them into the night to the point where I justify that I ‘can’t’ do them because ‘it’s too late’ and ‘I need to go to sleep.’

Therefore, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I had deliberately created that pattern of postponing my responsibilities late into the night so I reach a point where it’s ‘too late’ meaning, it’s time for me to go to bed, when I clearly see I postponed my responsibilities late into the night so I don’t have to do them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the pattern of avoiding that which I need to do as my responsibilities until it is too late and I have to go to bed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to do my responsibilities instead of looking into the importance of doing them, such as the point of writing, where writing is where I see my programming and what I accept and allow so I can assist and support myself to re-direct and change who I am if I see that there is something that does not support me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to make it clear within myself the importance of doing these responsibilities daily and what the outcome would be if I continue to do such responsibilities in how they support/benefit me and the Group of Life, for I see, realize and understand that doing a responsibility such as self-writing every day is what will assist and support me in self-realization and self-change in my Journey to Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to do my responsibilities and postpone them, instead of looking at the importance of for example writing, where with writing, when I write I am able to see who I am and also see how I have created who I am, and in knowing / seeing who I am now and how I have become who I am now – I have equally the opportunity and ability to see how I can change that / what I have become if what I have become and who I am now is bothering me and not what I would like to be and exist as.