227. Expressing and Standing in my Words

Continuation from:Day 224: To become a Leader… Day 225: Fear of Being Disliked Day 226: Who am I if I Just Want to Please Others? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so afraid about expressing myself and who I am really in front of others because I am afraid toContinue reading “227. Expressing and Standing in my Words”

224: To Become a Leader…

I got the chance to organize an event for international women to come together, meet and make new friends at a nice restaurant. Since I was the organizer I got there early and planned to make sure I greet everyone who comes, as well as say goodbye, and get to know as many women asContinue reading “224: To Become a Leader…”

Day 203: The Idea I Must Know EVERYTHING – Part 2

Continuing from:Day 202: The Idea I Must Know EVERYTHING I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others when I do not receive enough/any information that I requested from them because they don’t know/don’t have that information because I realize that I expected and believed that they know the answer andContinue reading “Day 203: The Idea I Must Know EVERYTHING – Part 2”

Day 202: The Idea I Must Know EVERYTHING

I am not confident to walk my word redefinition blogs publicly and require my DIP buddy’s cross-reference before I publish, so I am going to open another point that has been pretty apparent and really came up to the surface today. The point is that I have placed a lot of pressure on myself toContinue reading “Day 202: The Idea I Must Know EVERYTHING”

Day 194: Judgements Over Looks & Age

Memory: When I was at a bridal boutique and the worker said she was turning 32 and I had an experience of “I should say something” and I blurted out “oh you don’t look 32.” Then I reacted in guilt, shame and embarrassment. I know that what I said was not supportive because I wasContinue reading “Day 194: Judgements Over Looks & Age”

Day 174: My Friends are Happy but I’m Unhappy

  Continuing from: Day 173: Feeling Left out With Friends I was around 10, in the car with girls or “my friends” from my class. The girls were being loud in the car, talking. They sounded happy. Self Forgiveness: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from my friendsContinue reading “Day 174: My Friends are Happy but I’m Unhappy”

Day 173: Feeling Left out With Friends

Man thinking on a train journey. (Photo credit: Wikipedia) Continuing from:Day 172: Going to a Party You Don’t Want to Go To I am taking this memory apart and exposing points/patterns I accepted and allowed myself to exist in: I was around 10, in the car with girls or “my friends” from my class. The girls were being loudContinue reading “Day 173: Feeling Left out With Friends”

Day 172: Going to a Party You Don’t Want To Go To

Continuing from:Day 171: Compromising Yourself for Friends Memory: When I was in the 5th grade I got invited to go to a friend‘s birthday party, however, I was uncomfortable with this because according to who my friend was and the people she was inviting, I had a knowing or a prediction that I wasn’t goingContinue reading “Day 172: Going to a Party You Don’t Want To Go To”

Day 150: My Job is Not Good Enough

In continuation from:    Day 149: Comparing my Job with Another’s Job I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see/perceive my job to be not good enough. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe my job is not good enough because I am not making enoughContinue reading “Day 150: My Job is Not Good Enough”

Day 145: I’m Not Bad…Just Misunderstood…

image source Continuation from:Day 144: Consequences of Snarky Remarks I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically judge myself within and as self-punishment of defining/judging/seeing myself as as “bad” person for speaking about another through making fun of them, within arrogance and without consideration of the impact/consequence of my words. IContinue reading “Day 145: I’m Not Bad…Just Misunderstood…”