286. Wholesome Embrace as Living Expression

christiana-rivers-217056I listened to the recording on EQAFE called The Simplicity of Taste. One point that was brought forward was identifying the words that you experience when you taste food.  Eating a juicy orange could for example conjure up the words ”bubbly excitement,” within you and the next step would see where have you experienced a bubbly excitement  in your life, and where can you apply and live that in your life.

I played with this approach today while eating a slice of pizza. It was a large, greasy cheesy slice with spinach on top and as I ate it the words ”wholesome embrace” came through me. In me I asked where have I experienced this word in my life? Then a memory popped up of my uncle who I use to visit every year, and he was very affectionate and he use to really hug me, hold me and embrace me, wholesomely. It was a very nice embrace, and I really enjoyed his affectionate expression towards me.

Upon seeing this remembrance and connection to the words ”wholesome embrace” the pizza held for me, I walked a forgiveness line to re-align / merge the expression my uncle expressed / lived back into me, where I then made an internal commitment statement to wholesomely embrace my partner, family and friends with a big hug when I greet them, just as my uncle did. Within that I also gained gratefulness – gratefulness my uncle lived and expressed this word and being affectionate towards me, because he was the only family member who did this, so he was very unique in that expression.

The steps I walked in the process was:

  1. Eat the food (lol)
  2. As you eat the food, what experience as words would you say this food brings up in you? (ie: ”Bubbly excitement” ”Wholesome embrace”)
  3. Once you identify the words – where in your life have you experienced this word, or what memories come forth connected to this experience?
  4. Walk a self-forgiveness process to re-align the word / living expression back to yourself and gain clarity on where or how you can use it in your life nowadays
  5. Be clear on how exactly you will live this word in your life, stick to it until it becomes second-nature in you and have fun!

So this was a technique I used from the EQAFE recording The Simplicity of Taste … maybe you want to try it out yourself 🙂

 

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230. Insights about Alzheimer’s

I watched the movie Still Alice in preparation for my participation in the Desteni Movie Night Hangout with Joana and Marlen.

One of the first points that came up for me while watching the movie was what would I do if I knew I have early-onset Alzheimers?  If I knew I had limited time to remember certain people, knowledge and information, memories of my life I would write as much as I could down either on a notebook or in a blog to record what I found most important. What I find most important to note down is life lessons I’ve had, realizations and insights I’ve found of myself and the world,  regrets I have, and anything else that I think would benefit others to learn from me since all would be fading away soon. So I would basically want to create a legacy for people, something in which they can take my words of ”wisdom” so to speak in which they can use it to improve or better their lives.

Then I would find ways in which I could somehow assist and support me during the Alzheimers.Because I know it can be very stressful dealing with the disease, I would like to somehow prepare the people around me to show me or read me certain material from Desteni if I end up having an emotional breakdown when I have that disease for example. Because I won’t be able to remember the information on how to forgive myself in that moment, maybe the people around me can do that for me — walk and support me with helpful information in that moment (this is similar to what Marlen shared in the Hangout where she supported another with the Alzheimer’s disease).

Another point that came up while watching the movie was who would I be if my partner would have Alzheimers? Because in the movie Alice’s husband started to drift away from her, and this bugged me a lot.  Those who have Alzheimers need people closest to them to support them with daily tasks and responsibilities. I would like to think I’d be there unconditionally for my partner 100% because I care about them and would not want them to suffer or struggle. However, even despite them not having Alzheimers right now I am faced with the reality of who I am as a partner daily through my interactions with them and can say I am not yet satisfied as making the absolute statement I am the best partner I can be for them because of the extent to the thoughts, memories and reactions I am aware I still require to sort through, align and correct.

While I do suggest you watch the movie Still Alice, also take a listen to EQAFE’s recording on Alzheimers and what actually contributes to the development of the disease.

What in the mind-physical relationship create/manifest the consequence of Alzheimer’s?

What does the existence of Alzheimer’s say about the extent of the dependency on the mind-physical relationship? 
How does the mind, influence/affect the fabric of the physical to manifest Alzheimer’s?

Also, Joana and Marlen share cool insights and techniques with me in the Hangout for those who have family or friends with the illness.

Thanks for reading. See you next time!

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Day 217: How Too Much Thinking Causes Headaches

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Today I listened to a really interesting audio recording from EQAFE on the brain and how we create headaches due to thinking.

Is it really amazing and fascinating at the same time to listen to how we are basically the creators of our headaches, that it is from our own participation, acceptance and allowance of thoughts from deep-seated emotions that create such pains within our own brains to the extent that our body communicates to us through headaches.

We so easily take a pill and get on with our life, but the more we allow this, the more this issue, or point that is deeply suppressed within comes out again, either through more headaches, or other consequences within our bodies.

So I saw how I have conditioned myself to basically take medicine or natural medicinal support for my body whenever a headache would strike. Now since listening to the audio recording I have knowledge on the steps to take to actually heal and treat a headache for good.

In a way I am ”looking forward” to when a headache comes again to walk the path suggested to see for myself what I can find and discover of me that I’ve been suppressing/hiding so I can understand and clear the point finally, that way when I face a similar point in the future I can apply the immediate correction before a headache starts. I will definitely share with you all about my findings!

This is going to be a short blog, but I do recommend you check this recording out if you are interested in learning more about how thinking effects the brain and how to heal your headache without medicine. 

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Day 191: Aversion to Bananas Part 2

Continuing with: Aversion Towards Bananas – Where Did This Come From?!

Points noted down:
-Disgust towards bananas
-Want to gag if they are around/near my mouth
-Backchat: “I don’t want to taste it/eat it” “I’m going to gag” “I don’t want to eat it” “my blood type says I shouldn’t eat it” “my blood results says I’m sensitive to it/my body reacts to it so I shouldn’t eat it”
-Fear/petrified of having to eat it

-Feeling proud of being known in my family for my dislike of bananas (getting attention from mom, for example)
-Enjoyed that attention, cause that’s “Me” it was something I saw special/unique/different than everyone else in my family that I could say is “me”

I asked my mother today if there was any moment in my life where I had a traumatic or dramatic experience with a banana and she said she could not see anything. I will then have to track my father to see next lol.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in disgust when I see a banana without knowing why and from this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question why I don’t like bananas and why I find disgust in them while they are simply a fruit, a food and are eatable yet I cannot put one in my mouth or otherwise will gag

I realize that the banana is a fruit, just like all other foods here on this planet meant to nourish the physical body. It is “harmless” in that it is equal like all other foods here and existing on this planet with me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider the mind‘s influence on the banana where I have given my power away to the mind where it decides for me to react in disgust if I see a banana, smell a banana, or watch someone eat a banana where I don’t know or understand where this reaction came from or the memory that created this aversion towards the fruit

I realize that I had somewhere in my life allowed myself to react every time I see, smell or watch someone eat a banana instead of understanding or knowing why and from this, I realize that I had in someway allowed my mind to take that point or take a memory of me where I had an experience with a banana and use it to its own benefit to make me react whenever I see or am in the prescense of a banana and I have allowed myself to be completly blind and swiped of a memory of knowing what memory is the result of this reaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuses “I don’t need to eat it because my blood tests say my body reacts to it” to not try and eat a banana for the first time.

I see, realize and understand I have a fear of eating a banana and I don’t know why. Nothing holds me back from eating a food but me and my reaction to it. I know how to eat, so I am able to eat this banana lol I have to in some way walk through the reaction of wanting to gag from it. Gagging is a physical reaction which means there are uncovered dimensions, dimensions that are result in the gagging reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a fear reaction towards eating a banana by fearing to gag on the banana and possibly throw up if I were to eat it, and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am going to gag or throw up if I eat a banana instead of realizing I have no conscious awareness or recollection of ever gagging or throwing up from a banana so this is eating a banana is new territory for me

I commit myself to continue walking the banana-point in looking to see what can assist me in being able to eat or try a banana within stability

More to come…

https://eqafe.com/i/mmulcrone-childhood-memories-influence-your-current-tastes-life-review

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Day 190: Averison Towards Bananas – Where Did This Come From?!

Tonight I listened to the EQAFE interview: Childhood Memories Influence Your Current Tastes and I looked at how I have always had an aversion or resistance towards bananas and I never knew why. I cannot pinpoint an actual memory, but what comes up when I look at it is a disgust and wanting to gag. I have in the past tried such foods like banana bread, but only because I wanted to see if I could handle it, and I would end up having such an emotional reaction towards it I couldn’t finish it.

The being who was speaking in the interview mentioned how they defined themselves according to this object they didn’t like and justified it was who they were, and I can see that in my own life I have enjoyed being ‘different’ in being the one in my family who doesn’t like bananas and my mother and I use to joke about my dislike for them and made fun of it instead of realizing how I have such a reaction to these fruits without my understanding or awareness as to WHY, thus that shows me I have in some way allowed my mind to take on that point and the memory is so deep within me that it’s not even in my conscious awareness. So I have allowed my mind to take this reaction of resistance/aversion and disgust of bananas and use it to its benefit of generating energy.

Imagining/looking at eating a banana now I physically react by frowning and shutting my mouth. My mouth closes up and I don’t want the fruit to enter my mouth at all. Backchats are “I don’t want to taste it” “I don’t want to eat it” “I’m going to gag.”  Tomorrow I will ask my parents if there was any prominent memories of me having a traumatic or emotional experience eating or being around a banana because this may assist me in understanding where this aversion comes from.

Points noted down:

-Disgust towards bananas

-Want to gag if they are around/near my mouth

-Backchat: “I don’t want to taste it/eat it” “I’m going to gag” “I don’t want to eat it” “my blood type says I shouldn’t eat it” “my blood results says I’m sensitive to it/my body reacts to it so I shouldn’t eat it”

-Fear/petrified of having to eat it

-Feeling proud of being known in my family for my dislike of bananas (getting attention from mom, for example)

-Enjoyed that attention, cause that’s “Me” it was something I saw special/unique/different than everyone else in my family that I could say is “me”

So, I cannot pinpoint or find the memory of where I created/got this aversion in the first place. I will walk Self-Forgiveness on general points in relation to it tomorrow.

https://eqafe.com/i/mmulcrone-childhood-memories-influence-your-current-tastes-life-review

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FREE Self-Help Interviews:
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Desteni Wiki
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Day 119: Facing the Reality of Abused Children

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While making muffins I was listening to the EQAFE interview: Always Feeling Like I’m Not Doing Enough and the person that was speaking said that she was working as as a doctor in a place where people don’t have hospitals and medicines due to the economy/government (in this case, people who live in poverty) and she said that the extent to what she had seen and with the children dying in her arms it became ‘too much’ for her and she thought back of the past when she was in her quiet room admiring her awards and wished she was back there.  She mentioned the word “escape” – that she wanted in that moment to escape the atrocities of what she had been dealing with and when she said this a memory popped up for me of when I was in high school visiting a shelter for abandoned and orphaned children.

Memory:  I had to do a school assignment where I had to do community service and observe the environment. I chose to volunteer at a shelter for abandoned and orphaned children.  I went for a visit and I remember that the children I’ve met had major social and behaviour problems.  One child I was with was difficult to play with because they would bite and/or hit me randomly and the workers had to come over and stop him.  I was pretty shocked by what I’ve seen and one worker would point out which child got abandoned, which child was abused and I would look at these children and wondered what that must be like and why someone would do that to their child and what will happen to them?

Let me tell you, I got a reality shock when I was there.  I was emotionally unstable with a headache and wanted to leave – wanted to escape – but had to stay another hour to finish my report. I was not only shocked by the reality of what I’d seen but also traumatized. I realized that there are parents who do abandon their children, who do abuse their children, and children are so small they cannot protect or defend themselves and it’s even more horrifying that parents, the ones who are meant to care and nourish the child, are the causing physical and mental damage upon them.

When I presented my report to the class, I avoided eye contact so I couldn’t see their reactions. I was embarrassed and humiliated to share what I’d observed and realized.  It was unlike anything I have ever encountered, and coming from an environment/home where I was basically “safe” from that part of reality, I was uncomfortable to expose what I’d seen.

Listening to this interview and becoming aware of the memory I am yet again given another wake up call about how necessary and important it is for me to to give my time and money towards a solution to a new system/a new way of life that guarantees the end of abuse for all. We as humanity need to come together and STOP the atrocity and abuse we have accepted and allowed on earth and on each other – ESPECIALLY on the children. They are our furture.

I support an Equal Money System, a new system as a solution to end the abuse for all.

I will be walking Self-Forgiveness on this point in my next blog on this memory/point.

Thank you.

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