271. Standing up to Teenagers?

rgj-nu_qwjm-haley-phelpsToday I had to remind two pre-teen girls in front of their friends to clean up the mess they left for a mouse cage they cleaned today at school. It is through the school philosophy the students (and teachers!) need to clean up after themselves. Though the girls basically tried to skirt around doing this – coming up with answers like the cleaning man should do it…basically finding a way out of it. I reacted to their laziness and blamed this generation for being inconsiderate, spoiled and lazy.

I know not all children / pre-teens are like this, but I have encountered several of them in the school establishment I work at.

The problem was that I caved in and let the point go because I didn’t know how else to direct them. I gave up on them, on the point because I was scared of being firm with them and was also scared of them refusing to help me even despite me being very firm and standing up to them.  I ended up cleaning their mess, though I regret it because they really should have done it.

From this, I have considered if many parents do this – they don’t know how to be firm and stand up in assertiveness to their children in showing them what they need to do in consideration of themselves and others, so they end up doing the work for them, and thus this allows the child to go through life having adults or people doing things for them…

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having pre-teens / teens stand up to me and say no on something I need them to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the pre-teens / teens make fun of me in front of others / their peers instead of realizing this could only happen if they allow it and are not alone – because if they were alone, it is most unlikely they would make fun of me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the power of ‘strength in numbers’ meaning, that 2 or more individuals who agree and stand together on a point, will continue to stand/live out that point, such as for example, refusing to help out the community by cleaning up after themselves, so they stand together on the point, refusing to help, thus making it harder for the adult / other individual to move / suggest / push them to do what is required / needed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame this upcoming generation of pre-teens and teenagers through defining / labeling them as lazy, spoiled and inconsiderate – not realizing they are the product of our (adults) collective acceptance and allowance of how we participate, and exist in through and as the mind consciousness system – meaning, this generation is  but a result of how we as adults are existing within towards our internal and external experiences towards our personal lives and this world system

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be quite thorough and clear to the pre-teens / teenagers about what is required of them to do – such as explaining to them the philosophy and requirements of participating in the school environment, that it is expected of them to clean up after themselves because everyone else does, so to please finish what they started, instead of allowing someone else to do their job for them. Also, within this I realize that if they do not listen to me I can go to additional support / other teachers to help me with this point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to succumb into fear of ridiculing myself in front of pre-teens / teenagers who were not listening to me / doing what I suggested they do because I was afraid of being ridiculed or made to look stupid in front of them. I see I am afraid of looking weak in their eyes, where they will call me names or make fun of how I look – not realizing these fears indicate WEAKNESSES I still need to strengthen within me.

I also realize that I should have pulled the two pre-teen girls aside to talk to them privately because then perhaps their friends’s presence would not influence them. I do think friend’s and status / ego is a big importance in a pre-teen / teens life (unfortunately) which can influence their interaction with adults or doing things they self-honestly need to do. If only we could have  base foundation of relationships within self-support and self-honesty then it would be really cool. To get there, it takes us adults to stand as living examples for our children, the youngsters – showing and teaching what it means to live and co-exist with living things.

 

I commit myself to stand as a living example for our youth, showing them what it means to live / be considerate, motivated, expressive and kind in this world by first doing it and living it through me.

I commit myself to communicate myself thoroughly in explaining why something needs to be done so the individual(s) can understand more clearly – and communicate myself until I am clear within me and I said everything that needed to be said / expressed

I commit myself to walk / work through my weaknesses as personal insecurities towards how I look and am within me

I commit myself to consider the friend-factor when asking a pre-teen / teen to do something – that friends do have a major influence on them, so to place more consideration of this point of external influence of decisions the pre-teen / teen makes for themselves

I commit myself to show and teach the youth how to speak up and stand up independently for what you believe in and stand for, as to not compromise yourself by first not compromising myself / not giving in to points / weaknesses that come forth from my mind. I work on this practically by identifying intimately with myself my weaknesses so I can then work towards BUILDING/STRENGTHENING those weaknesses myself.

 

 

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

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268. Emotional Manipulation vs. Being Self-Aware

alnqdp3b3yu-naomi-augustI’ve been working and practicing becoming more aware on Emotional Manipulation – in myself and to others. And it is really sad and shameful to see how much of this pattern I’ve allowed to exist and influence me…Like in my relationship to my partner where through my facial movements and tonalities I can see how I try to move/persuade/manipulate my partner to do something or be a certain way.

Upon realizing how I live this pattern today, it was quite shocking and I wanted to avoid seeing this as it is quite  nasty, uncomfortable part I exist in, but also quite a gift because now I see how much of this pattern is me and has been with me for quite some time, so I can actually start changing it.

How I started to open up the point of Emotional Manipulation came from a week where it felt like everything in me became unsteady, emotional and intense. I had for some time been able to move and stabilize and take responsibility of points when they come up, and redefine words, but then it became difficult, I became difficult to direct me.

This is because my mind to an extent saw I was becoming good at moving and directing myself – really becoming directive principle, so it had to up its game. According to the Emotional Victimization series by the Atlanteans, when the mind sees you are becoming ”too good” at directing yourself and your emotions, it will up its game to make you fall back into being its slave. Well, it did a pretty good job throwing out all these intense emotional experiences and thoughts in me – and unfortunately at that time I did not understand why or could see it coming – the Mind can be so sneaky and clever – so I got lost in the experiences until I sought help through EQAFE.com to help me understand what is going on.

And lo and behold, through the Emotional Victimization interviews I discovered so much more about myself and my relationship to thoughts and emotions, and from this got to understand more on how I emotionally manipulate myself and how that effects me, my life and my relationships around me. It was a good wake up call for me because I got to uncover a very serious and detrimental pattern that is the foundation of self-sabotage, a pattern that needs to be stopped and corrected in me.

And it is also interesting to mention that even before writing this blog I went into the emotions of ”I don’t know what to write about!” but I caught this immediately – emotional manipulation – my own creation was coming up by throwing these justifications and tantrums, but as the interviews said – do not allow yourself to give in to that – stand by your decision to not accept and allow your thoughts and emotions to manipulate YOU. This was a biggie for me – the importance of sticking to yourself, your stand of not being wavered or moved by the thoughts and emotional experiences inside but to move/direct you according to what is best for you in principle.

It is still a point I am practicing – strengthening my stand to not be moved by my thoughts and emotions, but to stand up with me and what I stand for – which is to be directive principle of myself, within the principles of oneness and equality – that which is best for all. It is super empowering to be able to stand with you and your decision to not accept and allow yourself to be emotionally manipulated by your own thoughts and experiences.

 

 

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

 

 

266. Creating a Better Relationship – Doing the Dishes

photo-1478473495191-2d8dd1398896So my problem is I don’t like doing dishes and overall cleaning of the kitchen as a part of my job position’s responsibility.

I think it is too much – I get angry over it – I complain about it – and I find it unfair

When I wash the dishes, and put away the cutlery/silverware, wash the buckets, clean the blue bowls and sponges, putting the glass jugs in the washing machine, washing/cleaning the bowls from the school kitchen, sometimes even putting up chairs – I complain, I get angry, I don’t like it.

I understand I don’t like it, but it’s no excuse to go into the mind and to get interested in there, getting comfortable in there. That is when it becomes a problem – when I take a back seat in my mind and let the conscious thoughts and concerns swirl in my head. That is showing that I would rather enjoy and indulge in my mind, which is an illusionary reality that is only a distraction from what’s here, that also (through my allowance) take moments away from me, expressing me in the physical.

A resistance and personal unhappiness to washing dishes, and all the other specific kitchen work that was listed: I don’t like doing this, I don’t want to do this, why me, this is unfair… -internal conversations, preference, judgement, self-victimization, self-pity, helplessness, righteousness, anger

I don’t like doing this – preference, judgment, ungrateful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in preference with my job – where I make a statement ‘’I don’t like doing this,’’ within personal preference instead of considering that this is what I signed up for when I knew of this job position, therefore there is no point to complain since it was my decision to take on the responsibilities of the job position. Therefore, I realize the importance of making peace with this job responsibility because it is solely for the assistant, unless another teacher wants to help/take over the responsibility.

I commit myself to make peace with my job responsibility, knowing and acknowledging full well that I DECIDED AND KNEW of what this responsibility entailed, AND that I originally WELCOMED the job responsibility because it was a break from the children and quiet. Therefore, my preference of whether I like it or not does not matter because what matters is the physical responsibility needed for the kitchen in the kindergarten. I simply remind myself this is what I accepted as a responsibility and I can make the best out of it – I can listen to a recording, or do SF, I can when and as I am cleaning, do something with and for me that will support me in my life’s journey.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my job responsibility of cleaning the kitchen negatively by saying ‘’I don’t like doing this,’’ instead of ‘’womening up’’ and seeing the job for what it is – a kitchen with lots of dirty dishes and cutlery that requires to be washed for tomorrow’s lunch – simply as that and that any form of complaining or judgement of I don’t want to do this is not excuses nor allowed

I commit myself to take my job responsibility seriously by stopping the judgment, and complaining and simply using the opportunity I have with the dishes, to be with me and walk through any consciousness-relationship points

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be grateful for the opportunity to gain more money for working in the kitchen and the additional responsibilities that come with it because I know that I have an elitist job, compared to jobs and conditions other people like me exist in around the world

I commit myself to live in humbleness with my job position- utilizing where I am and wht I can do to create me into a better person

I don’t want to do this – preference, judgement, snobby/better than, anger with justifications

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect anger to the thought I don’t want to do this, and within this use justifications like ‘’I am tired’’ and ‘’this is not fair’’ to validate this anger

I commit myself to not allow the thought I don’t want to do this and participate in anger. Instead, I stop, breathe and remind me that yes, maybe I dont want to do it now, but it needs to get done – so I decide when it needs to get done – but it needs to get done today/tonight. The word here is being ASSERTIVE with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify that I don’t want to do this by saying something like I am tired, or this is not fair, not realizing how shit that is compared to what NEEDS to be DONE in reality – which is to wash the dishes and cutlery, etc

I commit myself to challenge each justification and see the bullshit that they really are – such as ‘’I am tired’’ or ‘’this is not fair,’’

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how much of a snob I sound like when I say I don’t want to do this- it is as if I am better than doing that. I realize that doing dishes/cleaning the kitchen does not make one look better or worse but simply shows what needs to be done. I see in my words I make it seem like I am better than doing dishes – that doing dishes is LOWER than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and place belief that doing dishes in a school setting makes one look low in the system because workers in the school system do not get paid as much as the teachers and administrators, so in a way, yes lower in terms of paycheck/money gains, but not lower in equality as a being interconnected with all beings on this planet.

I commit myself to live humbleness doing dishes, washing them as me, being here with me and the dishes I wash, enjoying the water, the soap on my hands – staying present in enjoyment as much as possible

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

 

 

263. The Me in Process

photo-1427324301858-41039f1e0c32I’ve been inspired by Dan’s blog: Self-Agreement and Anna’s Living the Word Me, so will write a similar topic of my own 🙂

ME has also been a word I’ve been using as a bridge-support-word when I see myself in a consciousness mind point, such as backchat, and I want to go into the self-sabotage point of giving up/not directing myself, so I’ve been practicing when I see myself in this self-sabotage mind consciousness system point, I bring up the word ME, in the agreement and realization I actually as ME want to do this/walk this process/want to suppot me and stop this sabotage.

So I will move from consciousness as existing in backchats for example, to bringing up the word ME, in establishing that starting point of doing this process for me, (because it’s actually something I want to do!!! I want to better myself, create a better me, better life for me and all) and then I move myself to the appropriate self-forgiveness.

I will share some Self-Forgiveness that came up for me when I was experiencing fear. I looked at ME and saw what would be most supportive was to write out SF tonight:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk my process in fear because I don’t want to end up in consequence of NOT walking it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that if I fear consequence for not walking process, and walk as that fear, then my starting point is not real, not for me, genuinely and thus walking process from/within fear will not work in the end

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting or being given the chance to walk process again because of the idea I already fucked up, instead of accepting my position here, and realizing I am still here, breathing, thus I still have the opportunity to walk and correct myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like process is so daunting, and scary due to the absoluteness that it entails, meaning, you either walk process for yourself or not, and that when you face life you must stand equal/absolute to it or not, and that is it. I realize it is so because life will not accept anything less of itself, and it’s about time life comes through in existence, and that actually, it is best for me and for all to stand up for life, because it is what I want and for everyone to have!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the absoluteness of life because to me that means no more deceiving, bullshitting, hiding, avoiding, but taking responsibility and directing yourself to/as your utmost of what you can be. I realize it is so easy to fall into the trap of self-interest because I’ve/we’ve been existing as such for SO MANY YEARS it is going to take dedication and commitment to create oneself into/as Life. I realize I must embrace and accept what is here, as me, as the manifestation of me as the world, as what I see and from that ACCEPTANCE, can then move and change

Acceptance has been a word I’ve been living today – accepting my reality, accepting process and where I’m at. I know once you get to that point of acceptance, you can only move forward to change.

I commit to actually really walk me within self-support, self-love, doing this process for me, for real, changing myself that will support in changing the world

I commit myself to live the word ACCEPTANCE – accepting my reality as is, accepting where I am as is, because it is REAL in fact, and because who I am in the moment is real, and what I see in reality is real, I must accept it as is yet MOVE myself from this acceptance into self-change, practically by walking through each point/thought/backchat personality of my mind that does not serve me, nor support me in creating my best self, and move into correcting the past and creating new

I commit myself to use the word ME as a bridge between self-sabotage and support, where when I see myself want to avoid, blame, justify and/or hide from not taking responsibility of my mind/directing my points, I use the word ME as the reminder of why I want to walk this process, and as that Me of/as self-support, move to the necessary forgiveness, writing, or whatever I see supportive in the moment. I do this process for ME, as what is best for ME and all.

 

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

262. Nix Competition & Create Together

 

A photo by Gonzalo Arnaiz. unsplash.com/photos/Nd63Kscv2XIContinuing from: Walking through Competition

There is NO EQUALITY existent in competition. No rival teams or companies wants to come together, because if they do, there is no winner, no one can be better than another, there is no energy to fuel… and the ego doesn’t like that! The ego wants to be number one, at the top. It wants to feel good, to win. To win/be at the top is comforting cause then you know your survival is set, but its not guaranteed for the rest of your life – you always have to keep an eye on the competition to make sure you don’t get bumped off the throne. So you have to be vigilant. Geez, who wants to live that way for the rest of their lives? Living in such a way of being on guard and ready to attack/fight is a waste of energy that could have been put into something more productive and considerate for the world.

What’s the point to be number one if what you miss is equality and working together with others in creating a better product/system/organisation that supports all? 

It’s not easy to drop the ego…to drop the desire/want to win and be at the top. But it’s funny cause you really can’t be guaranteed to stay at the top, so the whole process of wanting and striving to get to the top is an ILLUSION because you spend your time and energy getting to this ”top” that isn’t really real nor a guarantee since you are fighting with others, to either gain the most money, fame or status, and yet even if you were at the top, you can’t be comfortable there, because as life shows, there will be something better, more creative and unique that will step in the way and take over your position eventually. That is the game of life currently – you can’t win, even if you think you won, you really didn’t. So really got to ask yourself, where are you going with this game and are you walking towards creating a world best for yourself and all, or are you continuing in the creation of a world of seperation, fighting, wars, and hate?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically want to take down, belittle, make fun of, reject, and talk shit about X because I see them as my competitor and want to do whatever I can to prevent them from succeeding me.  I realize if I act on this automatic desire/behaviors, I fuel the existence of seperation, hate and fear of survival.

When and as I see myself want to talk shit, belittle, talk down, reject anything I see is my competitor/having similar nature of my company/product/etc, I stop and I breathe. I realize if I act upon these things I will create the very existence I want to stop and change (ie: abuse, hate, war and conflict) therefore I commit to shift my focus and attention away from pre-programming bashing, hating, putting down – because that’s obviously led us to no where good and onto myself and thus shift who I am within/towards competition to direct me in purifying my relationship with competiton

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear X taking my followers/customers all to themselves, thus leaving me bankrupt or empty with no fuel to keep my company/product/etc going. I see, realize and understand I fear losing my company/product/etc’s survival, because if I don’t keep it going, it will affect my survival of/as ego, status, power, or money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to already perceive any company/group/product similar in nature to my creation/product/company/etc to be and feel an automatic threat to my creation/product/company/etc’s existence, fearing actually for it’s loss/survival as survival is not absolutely guaranteed. So I see, realize and understand I fear my creation’s/product/company’s existence when I see competition or other products/companies/etc similar to mine cause I think that there can only be ONE GOOD one, a better/the best one

When and as I see myself fear X taking my followers/customers away from me, I stop and I breathe. I realize if I continue participating in this I am fueling even more fear and paranoia that will affect not only my relationship with X but also with others who work with me and my relationship with my own company/product/business, because if I exist in fear as the Mind Consciousness System, I am not here, grounded, stable, being here with me.

…to be continued

 

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

260. Walking through Competition

Last Remaining PassengerI found a reaction towards people who supposedly seem to copy me/my work and use it for their work. There’s the want to take all the credit, want to be the only one known for something or have done something. But it’s impossible cause when work is shared and open and available people can use it, or become inspired by it.

What I realised within this is you will never win, there is never a most successful person. Success is defined subjectively and differently by everyone. Kim Kardashian can be known as the biggest star for some, even herself, but there is always competition, always someone or a few people one sees as fighting their way to rise to the top. Competition is a tricky nasty thing, but it’s existent in all of us.

And the point is – it will never go away unless we change our relationship to it. We can use it in healthy ways, instead of destructive ways. There is a solution to every problem.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in protectiveness over my own professional work when I see another has produced/created similar professional work like me because I think that they have stolen a part of my work/creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel defensive when I interpret/think that someone has copied me and my work and used it for their own work/benefit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I think/interpret/question if someone took/copied my work when I see their work and compare it to mine and see similarities/expressions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I compare my work to another’s work and see similarities by thinking/believing that they want to be better than me. From this I realise I am existing in paranoia, thinking and believing another is deliberately trying to be better than me/one up me by taking my work and making it their own and/or better.

I realise that real copying of someones work is actually replicating/using the original copy or creating it similarly deliberately. I also realise I need to purify the word ‘’copy/copying.’’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others copying my work, and doing so deliberately for their own self-interested benefit where I lose out of success and opportunities to succeed because someone was able to make profit or get more out of it than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the thought/idea that someone took and copied part of my work to make their work look good or better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards the idea that the person who has similar expression/work like me must have sneakily studied my work and took what she like with the intent of being better than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others taking my work and using it for their own self-interest benefit of being more/better than me and rising to the top

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I see work similar to mine by thinking they want to be better than me and within that, actually fear and create imaginations of how they could be better than me. Within this I realise this fear then creates the desire for me to work more, and harder to do what I believe will look and be better.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the drive to be better, and produce better work actually comes from the fear of others also creating themselves and their to succeed and be better than me, so that there is only one good product/producer of the work. I realise that this is what companies do (like cell phones) where they take from each others ideas and use them to create something more and better so they can be original/unique/the best, not realising that eventually their unique/great idea will be copied or taken and then used by the competition to create something better/more unique, thus perpetuating the cycle of driving self wanting to be at the top instead of creating a product that will benefit all, and support all in actually stopping the entire survival/competition construct in the first place!!

I also realize this is how the mind is – where the mind wants MORE – more energy and will do what it can to keep it’s survival continuing by fueling itself as it’s systems. I guess this is why we fear stopping our mind cause we believe stopping the mind we will die – when it’s that the mind is a system we are fueling and when we stop fueling the mind we realize we are more than the mind, but actually beings in our physical bodies. The key is showing people how we are not the mind, but much more than that. And when everyone walks through their mind, and releases themselves as the systems of the mind, can the system of the world really change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise the nature of competition, which is based on self-interest in wanting more, either money, or more chances/security of survival, to be at the top, and self will drive self naturally to do what they see is best for them in context of succeeding and getting more…because self is exiting in FEAR and lots of it instead of equally wanting to help self and others in creating a world best for all

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question the nature of competition and what life would be like if survival ceased to exist, if everyone had the security and safety of their life, absolutely

and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work towards a solution in creating a world where fear of survival is non-existent, and life and living is real/absolute. I realise the reason why I have not committed 100% to working towards this ideal world/heaven on earth is because I have given more value to my fears, survival and living, which really is tricky then to create something new like a world without fear if one is already in fear about their life/survival, how can you really move on and create when you are stuck in fears?

I commit myself to stop and breathe when I see myself wonder or fear if someone took/copied from me and my work. I realize I do not know in fact if they did and really it does not matter in the end because what really matters is contributing to a world that guarantees a life for everyone where fear of survival doesn’t exist.

I commit myself to stop fueling the fear of whether someone is intentionally wanting to be better than me, since if I fuel it than I will then drive myself in fear to want to be better than them when the entire point of working for a world best for all is missed.

I commit myself to shift my focus and thinking to working on myself to create a world best for all instead of how I can rise to the top with my own work, since rising to the top is an ILLUSION, just like how the mind makes things in your head seem real.

 

 

More support: Purifying Competition

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

257. A Kiss Driven by Love

photo-1444839368740-f0d3572f8067I found some writings on the experience of Love I’d like to share, where within the experience of love, one moves themselves to kiss someone:

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand I was being moved by consciousness energy of love, which is the polarity of fear

When and as I see myself be moved or want to move from / as the energetic experience of “love,” I stop and breathe. I realize I had been allowing myself to move me based on feelings as energetic experiences from consciousness, instead of moving me within awareness and a decision of kissing the person.

So I commit to STOP me from moving through/as/within consciousness energy of love, take a step back, breathe and assess what would be best for me now as a living being not defined/moved by consciousness. I can redefine and live the word “Directive” – directing me towards what I see best.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that being moved to kiss someone out of feelings of “love” shows me where I’m still at in my process – that I was not aware of how I moved myself according to feelings as consciousness energy, even when it feels so good – that is the point of these feelings is to control and direct one to do things from it, and as long as you participate in it, you are a slave and making a statement to yourself you accept being driven by consciousness as energy experience of emotions and feelings

When or while I see myself be moved or want to move to kiss someone based on feelings of love, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am making a statement to myself and Life that I would still be a slave to energy as consciousness (and not my own decison and awareness) if I give in and move myself to do this- that I still accept and allow myself to be driven by energy as consciousness of feelings and emotions if I continue to move/exist in a state or mind possession of energy like “love”. From this, I commit myself to STOP participating in the energy experience of love the moment I see myself exist/experience it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the emotion/polarity experience of love is fear and be moved by that

When and as I see myself exist in the enegertic experience of love, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am participating in energy as consciousness of emotions and feelings and am now on the feeling side of the polarity…so I commit myself to stop, and use directiveness to move me as awareness of what I should do and who to be in this moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by the energetic consciousness of polarity of LOVE- which is (positive) feelings

I commit myself to remind me (when/while I’m in/experiencing feelings of love) “oops I’m going into positive feelings now, which is part of consciousness energy and polarity. I will myself to not move from this but question where is this experience coming from?” And move me to source it and change by identifying what needs to be changed in the moment (ie: identifying the words/expressions of Love and becoming the words I have separated myself from, or simply breathing until the energy dissapates)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to act on the feeling of love, as consciousness energy because it “feels so good,” Not realizing if I give into the feeling and allow myself to be possessed/taken over by this emotional experience, I am allowing myself to drop/weaken me and my stand in the face of feelings, like love and be directed/moved by it.

I see that there is a “weakness” in me of moving and allowing me to be directed by/thru positive energy, simply showing that I have (created) a relationship with positive feelings where I seek to live/experience them or be/want to move myself in them that require to be understood, directed and changed

I commit myself to become more aware of who I am in the face of positive feelings and experiences since I realize I have created a relationship to them, and from this awareness, practice stopping and standing in/as a point of authority by not moving with or in positive experiences, and not seeking to gain positive experiences, but simply be with me here, in breath with my body

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize if I am experiencing, being directed and/or moved by consciousness energy of feelings (like love) I am existing in polarity of consciousness and need to get myself out of that state otherwise I am trapping myself in the polarity construct of emotions and feelings

When I see myself be moved or possessed in the feeling-experience of love, I stop and I breathe. I realize this feeling is from polarity of energy as consciousness which means it’s opposite is fear and so I commit myself to stop my participation and allowance of being driven in consciousness as energy states of mind/being, to breathe through the feelings to stabilize/ground myself, and instead use the energies as cross reference of where I’m at and what words or underlying points I still need to work on

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize behind the energetic consciousness of feelings towards X are simply WORDS I separated from myself that X represents and triggers for me, thus-

I commit myself to identify the words as expressions I separated myself from and find how use them in me and my life through the redefining and living process presented through SOUL

 

Additional Resources:

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships