I am walking a word redefinition where I am clearing all the memories, thoughts, emotions and feelings towards a word so as to lift the veil from how I saw the word with my own limited view, then see what the world actually is in this world system and then walk a redefinition process where I see how I can live this world as an expression of myself
My current definition of relax is more of an idea or a picture of me completely letting every single tension and tightness within my body go and no longer allowing oneself to go into that point again, and within that I picture me as ‘relaxed’ walking or floating around aimlessly through life smiling, feeling ‘free’ however I can’t take care of myself or work in this world cause I am ‘too relaxed’ – I am not prepared or ready enough to do my work, I have let go of all the worries, concerns and tensions within me. LOL this is definitely an idea I have that I know does not align with reality, so I will walk self-forgiveness in releasing these ideas.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word RELAX to the idea that I completely let go of every tension and tightness in my body to the extent where I become listless, ethereal, floating and thus existing aimlessly in life in this experience of bliss
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word RELAX to the idea that I would be in constant bliss to the point where I am not around of my surroundings instead of realizing this is an idea I got from a movie where people were smoking pot and relaxing on the floor, were smiling and happy and from there I gathered/concluded that’s what being absolutely relaxed is
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being relaxed to smoking pot through believing one can only relax if you smoke a joint instead of realizing this is an idea I created in the mind from an assumption that to be relaxed, in fact one can only get there to smoke point instead of realizing that one can become relaxed as a living expression without any chemicals/drugs
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being so relaxed I become unaware of myself and my environment instead of realizing that would only be so if I were to take drugs, ingest chemicals, or allow myself to create such an experience within because I realize to be relaxed as a living expression within oneness and equality as what is best for all, one is always aware of oneself
I commit myself to let go of the ideas and associations that to be relaxed one has to smoke pot and assist and support myself to find out how to be relaxed as a physical expression of myself
I will continue with this redefinition word process in the next blog…thanks for reading!