To Heal Mother Earth We Must Heal Ourselves – 334

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I signed up to check out an online womanhood circle session and one of the activities that went on in the circle was singing to Mother Earth. Honoring her presence, the gifts of water and food she provides to us, etc. The songs were really moving and beautiful, but I could definitely see a disconnect when it comes to the actual protecting and ‘saving’ of the Earth.

While the music, the feel, and presence of singing and honoring to Mother Earth was beautiful and deeply touching for me, I could see that to truly heal the world, we must heal ourselves first. On a realistic level, this means being kind to oneself in every moment of breath to the point where your kindness lives as a real expression and it extends to every person and being that impacts them, which will then resonate within the Earth and eventual healing will take place on the planet because then it won’t be all songs and separation we live in for the Earth, but we are doing our part by actually living as an example of kindness, of self-healing, of responsibility by not accepting and allowing abuse again.

Because the point is abuse. We have incredible tribes and communities working towards healing the Earth in their own way, but how the REAL change for a better world comes from within. I see that we on an individual level must ‘clean up’ and heal up and also live realistically, actually truly care and love ourselves and really eliminate harm from within. From living that, ideally, and hopefully – other individuals will also live that within, and because humankind will change, the Earth will change.

So while I find singing and honoring the Earth a beautiful thing, we need to take it a step further and actually start honoring ourselves – because that is where the real stuff happens and starts to really ripple in this world.

What I have been working on personally is not allowing emotional abuse to exist both within me and without. Within, with not allowing my thoughts to manipulate me into emotions (easier said than done lol), and on the without, not participating with people, conversations, etc that are harmful – or the very least, try to direct myself within it to the best of my ability.

 

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

There is No Winner or Loser in the New Paradigm of Life – 333

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Photo by Fabrice Villard on Unsplash

I wanted to share briefly about a realization I’ve had recently. It’s the point of knowing people’s weaknesses and using them against the person as a means of control.

This came up because I have encountered individuals, who have shown me over time, that unfortunatly would try and use my sensitivity and weakness to turn things into their favor. They would use certain words, expressions, or plain out give me the silent treatment because they knew it would make me uncomfortable. They did this as a means to make me break down into fear in order to control me.

I also know for a fact that in the beginning of my relationship with my partner, when we have a conflict, I would bring up their past mistakes to justify my reasoning and weaken them to try to win. I remember in an EQAFE recording they mentioned this was a big no-no because it only fuels spite and not understanding and resolution. It took a lot of me and a visit to the Desteni Farm to reprogram myself with this point.

I know now for a fact that if there is a conflict, and the individual ”wins” in having weakened their ”opponent” where the opponent is so hurt or in pain or can’t defend themselves, that both of them lose. Because they are both existing within a form of polarity – of winner and loser, superiority and inferiority. Not everyone and what is best for them is taken into consideration. This is the old world paradigm way of life. This I don’t buy or give into anymore.

For a new paradigm of life, everyone wins. Conflicts end when there is a direction and solution that is healthy and best for both people. It takes everyone and everything involved into consideration. This is what I see when it comes to Equality and Oneness as Life.

 

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

 

 

Care for the Little Things and Impact on the Future – 332

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I was putting away some seasonal/holiday decorations and I looked at a point of irritation that I experienced towards putting away each piece in its box.

There were some lights that required to be untangled then wrapped, and cups that needed to be wrapped, plus little things. Each item required time and care to be put away.

I saw a desire to just ignore the process and put the items in the box, with the tangled lights and unwrapped cups, etc. I use to do this, because I didn’t have the patience to take the time and learn how to properly put each piece of away. I just ”winged it.” I did what I thought was fine.

Yet, what would happen the next year when I take out the decor is that I would be disappointed to see dust accumulated on the items and needed to be clean, or there were cracks or broken pieces because I didn’t put away the items well.

Considering that I now have awareness of what I didn’t like from the past when it came to uncared-for seasonal decorations, I decided to step up the care and actually do my part by taking the time to wrap and place each item accordingly and make sure they are stored well in the box to prevent getting broken or cracked.

From this, I looked at how I am helping my future self by doing my part in making sure each holiday/seasonal item is wrapped and stored properly, so when the time comes for me to re-decorate, I am pleased with how I stored it last year, and most likely less damage has been done. And I repeat the pattern – I help myself for the present and future, by taking good care of the items and storing them properly for the next year too.

My general message is that in the moment we may react in anger, irritation, or frustration over taking care of items and having to store them a certain way for the year. But if you put them away carelessly because of you are in reaction, you are actually sabotaging yourself, and the quality of the items. Plus you are in a way, fueling a cycle of sabotage and carelessness, and when you meet your actions in the future, you will see what you did and most likely be disappointed/unsatisfied. Then, you have choice to repeat the pattern, or change it.

For me, I am now changing how I take care and store my seasonal/holiday items, because I don’t like the consequence of every year, picking up the box, seeing the dust and broken/carelessly left items, and having to actually take more time to clean/repair them, or even replace them by buying. Instead, I want to be satisfied with my work/actions, so I’m making the effort to care for what I do.

 

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

Fear of Ruffling People’s Feathers – 331

andrea-sonda--2Kca_ipKc8-unsplashI forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear starting conflict and ruffling feathers by my story to people who may react. I realize I want to share my story to inform and give as preventative measure (so people can learn) because I feel it is necessary.

I commit myself to realize that I may ruffle feathers and trigger people for speaking my truth or a truth that needs to be shown/revealed and that I should share it regardless especially if I know deep within me I must do it because if I don’t, I will compromise myself and feel it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that sometimes feathers need to be ruffled for people to realize what happened and how their actions affected me, so that these actions can be brought to light and stopped, as long as I also admit my point of responsibility, especially if I participated and allowed the harmful outcome to happen.

I commit myself to realize that if something was truly in violation of me, my beliefs, and was in a way I know the other person wouldn’t like if it was done unto them, that I most certainty can speak up about it as long as I am stable and objective within it. I realize doing so will bring awareness to behaviors that harm both myself and the other and thus it can be harder for the behaviors to continue once they are out in the open.

I realize even bringing harmful behaviors out in the open/in the light does not guarantee people will change from them, but that it’s worth a shot instead of being quiet about it and possibly letting people run away from it. I also realize I can use the harmful behaviors I have seen and been involved and share it through this blog to bring more awareness of what is existent in this world and the practical solutions for it, so we can correct/change.

 

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

Awakening My Resistance About Giving Back to the Earth – 330

nikola-jovanovic-OBok3F8buKY-unsplashMy partner and I are becoming more aware and considerate of recycling. We now have specific bags/bins in our kitchen and try to place the right item in the correct bin when we are finished with the product.

Today I decided to do the next part of recycling and dump the metal items in the recycling bin outside our apartment. It was a task I dreaded because it specifically requires putting one item (ie: soda can, etc) at a time in the bin. These bins are locked, so I cannot open it and dump all the items at once. This means the process is time consuming. Patience and perseverance for something so small is required.

I tried stuffing two or more metal cans at a time through the small bin opening but not all of them could fit. I could feel I was becoming impatient and really resistant of the process.

I then looked at how something seemingly so small and simple was giving me the hardest time, emotionally. I realized what I was doing was actually a responsibility I must do for the Earth – a giving back to the Earth – because what I consumed (ie: soda can) was something the planet provided for me. The LEAST I can do is give back by recycling and placing the consumed items back – as a point of care, consideration and gratefulness – into the bin.

And I was also looking at if I were to have a child, that I would need to teach the child the importance of giving back to the Earth, and doing something so small like putting the items in the correct recycled bins every month – just as a small duty to the Earth – is necessary.

Yet, for some reason, I resisted and dreaded the task so much because my mind/self wanted to do something else. The repetitive, ”boring” motion of putting each recycled item through the bin hole conflicted with what my mind/self wanted to do – which was to go home and look through my emails and get work done.

But something so physical, practical and NEEDED for the Earth was causing great distress in me. Shouldn’t it be the other way around? Why am I programmed to want to be in front of my computer more than being outside, giving back to the Earth by doing something as small as recycling cans?

This situation really opened my eyes to how much we are living in reverse – how we resist and dread really important things needed to give back to the Earth – the planet who gives so much to us. What an awakening it has been for me!

Much credit goes to The Portal and chats on Destonians.com for exposing how much we are neglecting planet Earth, and providing solutions on how to care, for Real.

 

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

How the Coronavirus Made Me More Aware – 329

toa-heftiba-UwB9VI4Rs2A-unsplashThe Coronavirus, I have found, is effecting each and every person’s life. It has spread and and is influencing every aspect of our system and survival – schools, grocery stores, hospitals, etc.

The Coronavirus has influenced me to up my awareness regarding how I take care of myself and my environment. Plus, the chats on Destonian.com chats have been especially helpful because they explain the origin of the virus and how to manage it.

What I can share is that the Coronavirus has influenced me to:

  • Stay more in the present moment, especially when out in public. Being aware of what my hands are doing, and what the people around me are doing. The virus has really upped my game of being aware to what is surrounding me.
  • Realize that everyone is seeing each other as ”threats” – even those closest to us. That we have to be even more aware if our loved ones are displaying symptoms, and to be aware of not kissing or touching so much in public.
  • At my work we stopped shaking hands for business meetings, and my level of alertness gets peaked when I hear someone cough or sneeze by me.
  • My partner and I do a ”disinfection round” whenever we come home, cleaning our hands, phones, keys and anything else we don’t want to bring in our home. This disinfection round made me realize how much I have been neglecting cleaning my items until now.
  • I am more aware of touching my face, and biting my nails. I am deliberately trying to stop doing this. It is super hard because it’s such a habit, so I told my partner to whack my hand when he sees me doing those things (lol).
  • Helped me become more thorough washing my hands, and I discovered I actually enjoy the long, careful process the washing of my hands. It’s a cool connection back to me and the taking care of my body.
  • That we are never safe and prepared enough. That the day the Cornavirus case was announced in my city, all the stores immediately were out of disinfectant and cleaning products. Even on Amazon and online stores sold out products or tripled their prices. It was like living in the apocolypse and the need to survive and doing whatever it takes to survive reared its head. I was so upset I couldn’t find anything that I retreated to creating DIY products. I was relieved I was able to make my own hand sanitizer and disinfectant spay with the ingredients I had. I showed myself I will do what I can to survive lol, yet it also exposed a paranoia personality inside of me.

Bernard use to say that no one was safe. I did not know what he meant when I heard it. I thought he meant physically-wise, like we could get into a car accident or a meteor could hit my home anytime (lol). But with the Coronavirus having such a major impact on everyone, now I get it. I am not safe – I could get this virus. All I can do is breathe, stay calm, become more alert of myself and everyone, wash my hands and do what I can to take preventative measures.

 

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

Self-Forgiveness on Fear of Losing Your Project/Business – 328

anh-nguyen-v-NBXj3Yv5o-unsplashI forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I become emotionally invested in a project/business, I also become emotionally attached and thus fear to lose it, which in time, I do. I realize from listening upon an EQAFE recording that the more you ‘love’ something/emotionally invest in to keep/have as your own, the emotion of fear of loss builds up in the background and if that’s not sorted/directed, you will over time, lose that which you ‘loved.’ I also realize love can only be tainted if fear of loss is in the background/behind the experience.

I commit myself to be mindful about what I become emotionally invested in, or become scared to lose, as I could slowly but surely create a situation in which I am about to or will lose the project/business.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I begin a business/project and continue to live and express within a starting point of fear (ie: it being taken me, stolen from me, etc) then my self and behavior will be driven by it, from a background ‘consciousness’ so to speak, and I will manifest for myself in physical reality what has been in the background, which I have been living from, which then confirms the fact I am the creator of my reality

I commit myself to stop having fears in the background within and towards any and every project/business I embark on, as any fear that is within me will influence how I act and will become, in which I will then create/manifest in some way or another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be scared of even starting a business/project for fear of losing it and having to endure the emotional experience about/from it due to past experiences instead of realizing I can prevent such repeating patterns in my life by identifying the repeating living patterns that exist within me and change them in strict self-honesty to make sure my intent is pure and without any emotion of fear

I commit myself to utilize the past experiences of emotional turmoil of losing projects/businesses in my life because of fear, to drive me in creating a more pure starting point, free of fear

…to be continued

 

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words